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<blockquote data-quote="Littleboylost" data-source="post: 727347" data-attributes="member: 21895"><p>Thank you all so much. I had a bad nights sleep and a very busy day at work that was not a pleasant day in the least. I had numerous issues to contend with and am still on the new job learning curve. </p><p></p><p>Had to travel from one clinic outside of my area to another the farthest away in my area, and be there in time for a web conference....got a speeding ticket...just my luck I wasn’t going any faster than any one else but lesson learned....again...Had a clinical trial patient to infuse again more driving...a new chemotherapy drug to be certified for....left home at 8:00 am got home and 9 pm. </p><p></p><p>My morning clinic visit was a <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/2012/censored2.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":censored2:" title="censored2 :censored2:" data-shortname=":censored2:" /> show to say the least. I am happy to say not my Circus not my Monkey. I am cross covering another Supervisor next week for vacation. He is a train wreck was running an hour and a half behind with 3 patients and 2 more patients waiting that probably wouldn’t get their infusion. This was with no apparent reason that I could see besides his own lack of organization skills. One patient asked if I was taking over permanently and the other supervisor was standing right there. When I said no she scoweled at him and said that’s too bad. This guy is a train wreck of a nurse and they made him a supervisor!! of a single clinic. Hard to find warm bodies these days. Clinic work is not unionized and pays less than hospital work. Tough to attract good staff. These patients deserve more. They already have enough on their plates. </p><p></p><p>All this in my day and I grabbed hot chicken on the way home for dinner...late dinner... When I got a chance to pause all I could do was cry. </p><p></p><p>I am so grateful for all of your support. I want so much more for my son. But like the hungry ghost I can want all I want to, and it will not satisfy any desire. </p><p></p><p>If want could resolve half of this issue of no education, no direction no purpose and drugs, I would be a happy person. </p><p></p><p>It can’t and I know that, I am just in the dumps. Crap weather crap days at work, son not motivated to do ANYTHING. </p><p></p><p>My gut tells me I am going to have to learn to love what is broken. I can’t fix him. Oh how I wish I could. How we all do. </p><p></p><p>His life to live. We get a call from rehab intake tomorrow. Let see where this situation with a bed is at? </p><p></p><p>There is really no need to pull his bail, if he fails to succeed in rehab he is going to prison. </p><p></p><p>I just can’t wrap my head around him and his behaviour. As many of us here can’t. </p><p></p><p>It is a waiting game and I tell him so. He slept here last night after coming in high wreaking of pot. He is not here tonight. I know he is probably smoking pot daily. </p><p></p><p>He didn’t get up to go to school today and then lied and said he did. Why bother lying. Exams are on Thursday and Friday he dropped 2 courses and might as well give up on the other two. The fact is he can do the work he is just too lazy and pot buzzed to care to do any work or even show up. </p><p></p><p>I don’t feel like we are enabling him but we are certainly not laying out what the next steps will be. There is no point in doing that until we have group counseling in place and a safe environment with a clear headed boy to even bother. </p><p></p><p>I go through the scenarios in my head of what I want to say and how I know he would react. Hurt, put upon with excuse after excuse ...we have all lived that Ferris wheel of round and rounds. I would get angry he would throw accusations and nothing would be any different. </p><p></p><p>He is such a lovely boy with such a good heart. I have a very bad case of the whys. </p><p></p><p>I have not been to the therapist lately as work has been hectic. I will be going Saturday. </p><p></p><p>Need to mediate more and cry less. </p><p></p><p>Yes all of my dear friends, this too shall pass.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Littleboylost, post: 727347, member: 21895"] Thank you all so much. I had a bad nights sleep and a very busy day at work that was not a pleasant day in the least. I had numerous issues to contend with and am still on the new job learning curve. Had to travel from one clinic outside of my area to another the farthest away in my area, and be there in time for a web conference....got a speeding ticket...just my luck I wasn’t going any faster than any one else but lesson learned....again...Had a clinical trial patient to infuse again more driving...a new chemotherapy drug to be certified for....left home at 8:00 am got home and 9 pm. My morning clinic visit was a :censored2: show to say the least. I am happy to say not my Circus not my Monkey. I am cross covering another Supervisor next week for vacation. He is a train wreck was running an hour and a half behind with 3 patients and 2 more patients waiting that probably wouldn’t get their infusion. This was with no apparent reason that I could see besides his own lack of organization skills. One patient asked if I was taking over permanently and the other supervisor was standing right there. When I said no she scoweled at him and said that’s too bad. This guy is a train wreck of a nurse and they made him a supervisor!! of a single clinic. Hard to find warm bodies these days. Clinic work is not unionized and pays less than hospital work. Tough to attract good staff. These patients deserve more. They already have enough on their plates. All this in my day and I grabbed hot chicken on the way home for dinner...late dinner... When I got a chance to pause all I could do was cry. I am so grateful for all of your support. I want so much more for my son. But like the hungry ghost I can want all I want to, and it will not satisfy any desire. If want could resolve half of this issue of no education, no direction no purpose and drugs, I would be a happy person. It can’t and I know that, I am just in the dumps. Crap weather crap days at work, son not motivated to do ANYTHING. My gut tells me I am going to have to learn to love what is broken. I can’t fix him. Oh how I wish I could. How we all do. His life to live. We get a call from rehab intake tomorrow. Let see where this situation with a bed is at? There is really no need to pull his bail, if he fails to succeed in rehab he is going to prison. I just can’t wrap my head around him and his behaviour. As many of us here can’t. It is a waiting game and I tell him so. He slept here last night after coming in high wreaking of pot. He is not here tonight. I know he is probably smoking pot daily. He didn’t get up to go to school today and then lied and said he did. Why bother lying. Exams are on Thursday and Friday he dropped 2 courses and might as well give up on the other two. The fact is he can do the work he is just too lazy and pot buzzed to care to do any work or even show up. I don’t feel like we are enabling him but we are certainly not laying out what the next steps will be. There is no point in doing that until we have group counseling in place and a safe environment with a clear headed boy to even bother. I go through the scenarios in my head of what I want to say and how I know he would react. Hurt, put upon with excuse after excuse ...we have all lived that Ferris wheel of round and rounds. I would get angry he would throw accusations and nothing would be any different. He is such a lovely boy with such a good heart. I have a very bad case of the whys. I have not been to the therapist lately as work has been hectic. I will be going Saturday. Need to mediate more and cry less. Yes all of my dear friends, this too shall pass. [/QUOTE]
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