New Leaf
Well-Known Member
I am blessed to have found this site. To be able to open up and share so much with folks who have gone through similar journeys is a wonderful thing. It can also be painful. When I began here four months ago, I was amazed at the many different stories and felt so much tenderness and encouragement given by others and to others. I was also astounded at the relationships that were formed and could see the strong bond here between folks. It is such a connection. To be able to connect with people at this level is....breath taking, and breath giving.
I had a moment yesterday that sent me spiraling. I was feeling so many feelings and the first feeling I went to was shame. I was ashamed and embarrassed that something I had written had caused a negative ripple in this pond of serenity that CD has become for me. When I thought more on it, I said to myself "Is it shame you are feeling Leafy? Or is it vulnerable?" I put myself, my thoughts out there without fear and expressed how I felt. Then I decided what I was feeling was vulnerable. So I went to my university (Google) and typed in that word. Up popped this Brene Brown Ted Talk- here is the link-
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=brene+brown+the+power+of+vulnerability
I would not have known of Brene Brown if it had not been for my newfound sister warrior Cedar. Thank you Cedar. Here is a shortened version of that talk.
After listening, I began to realize that the battle that was going on inside of me as an artist/poet, had to do with my issues with FOO, my struggle to find myself through occurrences in my life that had driven me to suffer low self esteem. In that struggle, I had covered up something that Brene reveals as intrinsic to our base of everything real and good and joyful, our basis of courage: our vulnerability.
I wanted to share this with you folks, because of all the courage I see in you, sharing your stories and sharing your very real feelings about your FOO, your anger, pain, suffering, relationships, body image, haircuts, dreams, and hopes for the future. I wanted to thank you for being so courageously, vulnerably YOU.
I am sure, with all of the collective wisdom and knowledge here, you have all discussed this, if so, it is a good review, if not, it is, I think, an awesome key to open up new ways of thinking and being.
I thank you my dear friends and sisters for allowing me to join in on your deep discussions, but most of all, for accepting me, (with all of my quirkiness, faults and silly songs), for being me. After all, who else can we truly be, but ourselves?
We are all worthy, dear friends.
Brene found that people who had the greatest self-worth embraced their vulnerability.
This is what I have seen here, people expressing themselves and being the ultimate representation of vulnerable.
What courage you all have.
Thank you so very, very much,
(((HUGS)))
leafy
I had a moment yesterday that sent me spiraling. I was feeling so many feelings and the first feeling I went to was shame. I was ashamed and embarrassed that something I had written had caused a negative ripple in this pond of serenity that CD has become for me. When I thought more on it, I said to myself "Is it shame you are feeling Leafy? Or is it vulnerable?" I put myself, my thoughts out there without fear and expressed how I felt. Then I decided what I was feeling was vulnerable. So I went to my university (Google) and typed in that word. Up popped this Brene Brown Ted Talk- here is the link-
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=brene+brown+the+power+of+vulnerability
I would not have known of Brene Brown if it had not been for my newfound sister warrior Cedar. Thank you Cedar. Here is a shortened version of that talk.
After listening, I began to realize that the battle that was going on inside of me as an artist/poet, had to do with my issues with FOO, my struggle to find myself through occurrences in my life that had driven me to suffer low self esteem. In that struggle, I had covered up something that Brene reveals as intrinsic to our base of everything real and good and joyful, our basis of courage: our vulnerability.
I wanted to share this with you folks, because of all the courage I see in you, sharing your stories and sharing your very real feelings about your FOO, your anger, pain, suffering, relationships, body image, haircuts, dreams, and hopes for the future. I wanted to thank you for being so courageously, vulnerably YOU.
I am sure, with all of the collective wisdom and knowledge here, you have all discussed this, if so, it is a good review, if not, it is, I think, an awesome key to open up new ways of thinking and being.
I thank you my dear friends and sisters for allowing me to join in on your deep discussions, but most of all, for accepting me, (with all of my quirkiness, faults and silly songs), for being me. After all, who else can we truly be, but ourselves?
We are all worthy, dear friends.
Brene found that people who had the greatest self-worth embraced their vulnerability.
This is what I have seen here, people expressing themselves and being the ultimate representation of vulnerable.
What courage you all have.
Thank you so very, very much,
(((HUGS)))
leafy