It has been a hard year. My mother died last May then I lost many to death, 2 best friends, one to suicide, 1 cousin my age, 1 dog, 5 close friends. A neighbor that I have known for a long time betrayed me in a huge way. I was feeling very sad on Christmas day so decided to take a walk, I needed to clear my mind and was hoping to feel peaceful, while on the walking track, I see a young girl about 17 years old sitting on the edge of a bridge, as I walked up to the girl I notice she had a knife in her hands and was stabbing her chest, I screamed at her to drop the knife, she dropped it then fell about 20 feet into the a creek with 2 feet of water. 911 was called and we pulled her out of the creek. Had I not been taking a walk, that girl would have been dead. The ambulance got there quickly and she was breathing but totally out of it. Next day I come down with a horrible cold and sinus infection. My daughter has been ok but very distant. She bought a bunch of expensive clothes and purses and told me her boyfriend bought them for her, he does not have that kind of money, I know that is just another one of her one million lies. I went over there the other day and her trash was piled nearly to the roof of her garage in several different trash cans, it is only 15 feet to take the trash out for the trash truck to pick up. My daughter is always talking about germs and clean air yet lets her garbage pile up like that. For 2019 I will let go of her pig pen lifestyle, I just don't understand how this is ok with her but as 2019 comes closer I will try to distance myself from her piggitry (is that even a word?) The last few times I talked to my daughter she has been heavy duty with the lies, even more than usual, if she says something I have to take it in opposites, her lies are extremely awful and my soul actually aches from listening to them and the non stop babble about nothing but political stuff.. It is awful. Even though we have distance and I don't see her very much anymore, the little time I see her she drains and hurts my spirit. I have unhooked all of my financial ties with my daughter except the house and it will be paid off soon. I look forward to the day I am unhooked financially from her completely. I feel grateful that she was good on our last cruise. I feel grateful that she lives in her own home and not in my peaceful haven. I am grateful that she has a job. Happy New Year. Thank you all for letting me vent.