I have been feeling extremely low again. Some of it is not related to my kid but it's always on my mind bc I am angry with myself for not expecting more of her. I'm just emotionally exhausted and it's so easy to just continue on keeping the peace by not enforcing things. My 19 yo daughter has neen home a lot. It is obvious she is not going to attempt looking for work or going to school anytime soon. She is depressed looking. I have cut off all rides to town unless I am going in for something. The thing that is weighing so heavily all the time is knowing this is probably never going to change until we actually kick her out but I just don't have the strength to do that yet. I might not ever have the strength. Just wondering, for those who have had to go this route, how long did it take you to finally do this. This will undoubtedly be the hardest thing I will ever have to do.