I'm 54.. I have my 29 year old son staying with me for the past 2 years. He was on his own but started suffering seizures and these seizures scared his room mate so much she didn't want him back there and he came to stay with me...So he has a full time job and works about 50 hours a week...and he was a MESS when he got here...Skinny...his eyes were scary looking (vitamin deficient)...tired....etc.... doctors diagnosed his seizures being from malnutrition, vitamin deficiencies and anxiety...not epilepsy... He insisted going right back to work..driving and doing everything they told him not to do...of course. My boyfriend of 3 years was living with us when my son first came here....my boyfriend and son did not get along for various reasons....And I felt that my boyfriend and his relationship was hindering my sons ability to heal...so I asked my boyfriend to leave...after 3 years...and he did....and it has caused a great loss in my life... My son however, has been thriving..but it took about this long 1.5 years since i kicked my boyfriend out for my son to get completely healthy..no seizures in a year...and back to normal weight. But I noticed he is very sensitive and says he doesn't "need" me..but notice when I am not here..he will not eat. I wrote him a note about 2 weeks ago..cause i have been suicidal and depressed (I didn't tell him that)...I just said that I want to be happy...and that I am afraid of him being unhappy..but I want my boyfriend back in my life...I can not breathe without him...I need help with the mortgage...I need him for my heart. My son says he understands....Meantime...My son brought a homeless girl to live here...she makes me very uncomfortable and now she is making him uncomfortable as well..and we can't wait for her to leave...on Jan 10th.... I want my b/f back here...but I don't want my son uncomfortable in his own house...I'm so frigin torn....If I have a few drinks..i tell my boyfriend...Oh I will work on my "son"....but when I am sober...I am like I CANT DO THIS TO MY SON.. I had told my son in my letter that he has many more years to live than I do...and I want him to want me to be happy...He SAYS he wants whatever I want (but I do not believe this...I think he just feels stuck). I don't want to make him sick again...but I don't want to die alone...I am so torn.