I need some advice


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Hello -
This is my first post here. I am overwhelmed and don't know what to do or think, so all advice is appreciated.

My son is 22 yrs old. His last full year of education was grade 7, although he went in and out of schooling for a few years after. He is bright, not just a Mom's opinion but from several teachers over the years. I believe he has ADD, Avoidance Personality Disorder, maybe some sociopathic traits, and is an alcoholic. He also smokes weed, but has so far not done anything harder than that.

He has anger issues. He has damaged so many electronic devices (phones, TVs, gaming consoles, etc), and has smashed many walls and ruined furniture in our house. This has been happening for years. He once kicked out a window and my husband and I had to repair at 4 am in morning with duct tape in middle of winter. His anger issues stem from his perceived inadequacies. He thinks he is a loser, stupid, not worth anything, etc.

Last month during a drunken rage, he threatened my husband, verbally abused us (which wasn't new but we had had enough), we called the police and charged him with assault. He was taken to police station and charged with assault. He was released the next day. We had moved to a new city a few months prior. His familiar city had a population of 100,000. We moved to a city of over a million people so he was definitely out of his comfort zone. Anyway, his sister helped him find a homeless shelter to go to. That was on Dec 1. Since then he has tried to get help from the mental health system, but help is limited. His Dad (my husband of 40 yrs) passed away a week ago, so he is also dealing with that right now too.

Today he asked me once again (he has asked many times) if he could move back home. I said no, because I don't want the verbal abuse, I don't want to listen to him yell and scream all night long, and frankly I am kind of scared of him. He once told me that when he gets enough nerve to kill himself he will take me with him. He has never harmed me physically.

I don't know what to do. He is still in homeless shelter and hates it. He doesn't want to go to rehab for alcohol addiction. He doesn't have any friends because we moved recently, all his relatives have written him off. He hates his life and his situation, but he is still unwilling to accept responsibility for his situation.

Help! He is really a decent person and he is so sensitive. He is lost. I want to help him, but I don't want to allow him back home because I'm afraid it will end up back in the same situation.
Hi Zopdrop, please first let me send my sincerest condolences for your husband's passing. I'm so sorry you find yourself in this position. Your situation is similar to many here and I'm sure more folks will be along soon - my story is a little similar, but without the substance abuse. I worry that you are in a very vulnerable situation and you need as much support as you can muster. Have you got the wherewithal to put your son up in a budget hotel room or similar for a week or two while you have a think about what to do? This would be my temporary solution if my son reappeared needing help as he cannot stay here at home any more. Are your daughters anywhere near you to provide you with some support, even if just moral ? Sending hugs and hope your way!


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Dear Zopdrop,
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are going through so much right now. It’s hard enough to deal with the grief of losing your husband without the added worry of your son.

I can definitely relate to you not wanting your son to move back in with you - I was the same with my son. Once they leave and we experience the peace that brings, it’s natural not to want to go back.

You are vulnerable right now and I would urge you not to give in to him, no matter how hard it is. He is an adult now, and it is up to him to make good choices. I know this sounds harsh, and I completely understand your desire to help, but you deserve peace and security in your life.

It’s a difficult time for you right now and I imagine hard to make decisions. I would comfort myself with the knowledge that he is not on the streets, he has shelter for the moment, so he is reasonably safe for the time being.

The sad fact is, there is really nothing you can do unless he chooses to seek help himself. Any assistance you offer will be wasted unless he is ready to make changes. Nothing you can do will fix this. Only he can do that.

I can’t offer any wisdom on the mental health services situation. I’m in Australia and our health system is different. Because my son is an adult, I have no right to information about his treatment and cannot seek out treatment for him (which is possibly the same in the US.) The best I can do is encourage my son to seek treatment and that advice usually falls on deaf ears. Sometimes my son seeks help of his own accord and when that happens things improve, but he inevitably stops treatment and the cycle starts again. After much help from this message board, I have learned that this is his choice and out of my control. I can love him and let him know I am here for him when he chooses to seek help for his issues, but I can’t solve his problems for him.

I want you to know you are not alone. There are many of us here who have experienced similar issues to you. Keep posting here. It truly helps.
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Hi and I am soooo sorry about your husband! Sending prayers!!!

We bought our daughter a house and put so much down on it that she had little to pay each month but she refused to get a job. We ended up paying while she and her useless.husband who worked part time destroyed the house. We sold it and bought her a mobile home and she only.had to pay lot fee.but did not and also the two of them fought outside, disturbing neighbors. Found themselves homeless. We paid rent. Until we stopped.

I don't think it was good for my daughters maturity for us to support her. She is in her 30s and homeless now and we are done. She seems just the same now living in an old mobile home as when she had nice places to live. She never cleaned up. I did it for her. She was unhappy then and is unhappy now. She and her husband still fight. I get this from a cousin who sees her social media. She is also mentally.ill and believes conspiracy theories very much.... they terrify her. Certainly she has not matured or gone for help....she has Medicaid now and may be getting social security too. Not sure. Your son could get social security and Medicaid too.

Kay can never live with us again. She.is very abusive and mean and NarAnon plus therapy helped us learn that we need to take care of us first. So for us housing our daughter did not help her. Now that she is homeless and we won't give her money, she won't contact us at all and and is managing with just her husband who works part time making pizza. Her son lives with my other daughter. She just is not willing to try to thrive. Neither is her husband.

I again send you prayers for clarity as to what to do. Please take care of you. It is a hard time for you and you matter as much as he does. Took us a decade to learn this. Love and hugs.
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Thanks for the words of wisdom. I knew deep down there is probably nothing I can do, but I still feel like I have let my son down.
Since my post, he decided to 'disown' all of us because he felt like we weren't being supportive.
I found out today he is in the emergency department, due to suicide threat. The shelter called police who took him to emerg. And to top it all off, he has tested positive for Covid. He is still unwilling to talk to any of us, the hospital staff won't tell us anything either. The only way I knew he was there was I decided to call the hospital to see if he had been admitted because the shelter staff wouldn't tell me if he was still there or not. I found out his Covid status from the social worker at the shelter. The hospital called the shelter to tell them of the positive test.
I hate thinking about how alone he must feel right now.


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He once told me that when he gets enough nerve to kill himself he will take me with him. He has never harmed me physically.

Welcome, Zopdrop. This is your place to stand:
I don't want to allow him back home because I'm afraid it will end up back in the same situation.
It's not a fun place to be but it's the truth. It's horrible for a mom to have to deny her beloved child refuge and support. We struggle with it because it's contrary to what is in our hearts and it is contrary to what we want to do. But it's real. Most of us here have been in this very spot. The thing is we did not arrive here alone. Our children arrived in this place, by either their choices or their incapacities. In your son's case he is making real choices here that are responsible for his predicament:
He doesn't want to go to rehab for alcohol addiction.
I am kind of scared of him. He once told me that when he gets enough nerve to kill himself he will take me with him. He has never harmed me physically.
he is still unwilling to accept responsibility for his situation.
He is dealing with mental illness and he is self-medicating. And he is unwilling to accept treatment for either one. You didn't make these choices. He did. But you are asking yourself to accept the consequences. The consequences so far have been extreme misery for him, and for you. What he said to you about taking you with him is extremely scary. While they are at this point only words, you should be scared.

In my own experience, there are 2 kinds of boundaries I had to learn to make and had to learn to tolerate. The first boundary is the easier one. That is to create a physical and emotional space where I am distant from the consequences of my son's behaviors and choices. The second one is much harder which is to create boundaries in my own brain from the pain and guilt and suffering that I feel because I have wanted and had to make such boundaries from my son who I love.

As I see it this is where you are now. You know you are in the spot where you have to create physical and emotional boundaries. But your heart does not accept it yet. I along with the others here, want to tell you that we truly understand how hard this is because we live it too.

I want to tell you how glad I am you found us. And I want to tell you how sorry I am you have lost your husband. There is another mother on the forum right now with active threads in pretty much exactly the situation you are in: Tishthedish. You might want to look at her threads.


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Hi Zopdrop!

Welcome to the forum. You will find tons of support here. And we truly have been in your shoes so we truly understand.

Your son probably is sensitive and smart. He just has to get to the point where he wants a better life and then he will start to make changes. The wait until they want a better life can be very long. Just when we think they hit bottom and will change, they go back to old ways.

At this point, you have to weight what will be best for yourself with the impact of any help you give him. At his age, he really needs to learn how the world actually works. The world won't make his life easy just because he is sensitive. He is now an adult and he needs to figure life out for himself. Doing things for him actually isn't usually helping. He needs to do things for himself to prove to himself that he can actually handle life. When he calls, tell him that you have faith he will figure things out. What things? Whatever is bothering him.

Keep him out of your home. He has shown you who he is. Believe him. He is a very angry person who lashes out when he gets mad. You deserve better. Far better.

One thing that many parents find helpful is to make a list of short responses to use while on the phone with him. Things like "I have faith you will figure it out." and "Hmmmm. That is interesting." and "I need to go now. Have a good day." It sounds odd to practice things like this, but do it anyway. I find the car is a great time to practice stuff like this. This way, the responses will be automatic and you won't accidentally agree to something you don't want to do. One great phrase when you don't want to do something is "I don't think I would enjoy that." and make that statement the end of the discussion of the topic. Just change the subject or flat out say "That subject is over. Let's talk about . . . "