Just wanted to offer some light and hope for so many of us on this thread. My son came home on November 17 after being in a 13 month faith based program mainly for a pill addiction. Our home was in a new state due to my job transfer. Prior to that he had been in and out of rehabs/sober livings and other programs since the age of 15 - he turned 23 in August. We had sent him to Florida for sober living at age 20 after a 2 month binge. We needed him away from us. I needed him away from me. He did well for a time until he didn't. He did the "Florida Shuffle" for a few years. He overdosed once while there. Fast forward to the present - he got a job within a week of coming home. He since has gotten two raises. He is now a driver at his company and making $25k per year. It's not a lot of money but it is amazing what he has accomplished so far. He keeps himself clean and cleans his upstairs room and bathroom. He loads the dishwasher, he takes out the garbage, he does everything without asking. Last week he made me dinner twice. He is really showing how much he cares about us. I was a nervous wreck before he came home. I was so very terrified. I cried a lot. I felt guilty . But I did not want to go back to the hell we had been living. I did not want to watch that bad movie anymore and certainly not again. I am not sure what the future holds. He is not sure what path he wants to take career wise but for now he is sober and happy and doing well and we are taking one day at a time. I really feel good about it - more and more each day. I am letting go of my fear.