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BeachPeace
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I sit here like many before me with such a heavy heart. I discovered this forum the other night after a really bad day
..I was able to sleep just knowing that I would come back here and read and learn. After a few rough days I have been trying to find the time to post an intro.
Due to the issues at hand I will use an alias like many others here so I can feel free (such a rare thing) to be completely honest.
My name is Beach. I am in my mid 30s. I have been married to husband for nearly 13 years. We have 2 children. I jumped off a very successful career path in healthcare administration to become a stay at home mom a few months ago. I am not sure I have resolved my feelings about that, but what do you do when no one else can keep your child?
Indigo, our bio difficult child daughter who is 10, was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD)-not otherwise specified before age 2. She is now just a regular Aspie (is there such a thing?) with sensory and social issues. She has been on a variety of medications in the past and most recently after a bad reaction to a combo of Straterra and Intuniv she is off all medications at this point. She loves animals (people .not so much) Most of the time she functions very well and we manage just fine. But sometimes she is so cold (just unemotional) that it makes me want to cry.
Then there is Blue, our adopted difficult child son who is 7. He is very loving. He is intellectually disabled and functions developmentally at about a 36 month age level. He also has diagnoses of PTSD, Fetal Alcohol Effects (FAE), Suspected Head injury as an infant, Anxiety disorder and unspecified seizure disorder. We adopted him from the Foster Care Program at age 5. He rages and has recently become so difficult ..I plan my days trying to keep him calm. He is currently on Depakote, Abilify, and Risperdal. He is much stronger than he realizes and is becoming more aggressive. We had labs done Friday to check CBC, Depakote level and Liver Function. Hopefully, his neurologist will give us some direction next week as to any medication change that may be indicated right now. My current problems involve the fact that he is covered by the State Medicaid program and that severely limits our access to healthcare options.
I thank you for reading this intro so far and look forward to joining your community. I have already read some great words of wisdom here. I was beginning to feel so very, very alone ..it is hard to live with the bruises caused by your child, or worry about your children hurting each other, or worry about how you will restrain your child in another year, month, or 5 more pounds and somewhere in the middle of all that I am supposed to keep it together enough to do laundry and make dinner?
Thanks,
Beach
Due to the issues at hand I will use an alias like many others here so I can feel free (such a rare thing) to be completely honest.
My name is Beach. I am in my mid 30s. I have been married to husband for nearly 13 years. We have 2 children. I jumped off a very successful career path in healthcare administration to become a stay at home mom a few months ago. I am not sure I have resolved my feelings about that, but what do you do when no one else can keep your child?
Indigo, our bio difficult child daughter who is 10, was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD)-not otherwise specified before age 2. She is now just a regular Aspie (is there such a thing?) with sensory and social issues. She has been on a variety of medications in the past and most recently after a bad reaction to a combo of Straterra and Intuniv she is off all medications at this point. She loves animals (people .not so much) Most of the time she functions very well and we manage just fine. But sometimes she is so cold (just unemotional) that it makes me want to cry.
Then there is Blue, our adopted difficult child son who is 7. He is very loving. He is intellectually disabled and functions developmentally at about a 36 month age level. He also has diagnoses of PTSD, Fetal Alcohol Effects (FAE), Suspected Head injury as an infant, Anxiety disorder and unspecified seizure disorder. We adopted him from the Foster Care Program at age 5. He rages and has recently become so difficult ..I plan my days trying to keep him calm. He is currently on Depakote, Abilify, and Risperdal. He is much stronger than he realizes and is becoming more aggressive. We had labs done Friday to check CBC, Depakote level and Liver Function. Hopefully, his neurologist will give us some direction next week as to any medication change that may be indicated right now. My current problems involve the fact that he is covered by the State Medicaid program and that severely limits our access to healthcare options.
I thank you for reading this intro so far and look forward to joining your community. I have already read some great words of wisdom here. I was beginning to feel so very, very alone ..it is hard to live with the bruises caused by your child, or worry about your children hurting each other, or worry about how you will restrain your child in another year, month, or 5 more pounds and somewhere in the middle of all that I am supposed to keep it together enough to do laundry and make dinner?
Thanks,
Beach
