CI'm glad everybody escaped the worst of the storm.
It sounds like things are getting better at your house.
Well. I exaggerated.
I think our dog Dolly has Alzheimer's. She has begun to pee in the house. These are not accidents. She just goes. (I had another elderly Boxer many years ago, Jack, who did the same thing.) Sometimes she seems confused and disoriented. She seems more dependent. I am bringing her to the vet tomorrow.
And Stella is not going in her litter box. Why, I am not sure. I clean it every day, sometimes twice. Add that to Romy, who I always had to watch like a hawk and who I crate because he's so unreliable.
I am overwhelmed. Dolly started this first, then, Stella. I can't find where she is going to the bathroom and that scares me the most.
It can be anything in your life. Moving ahead in your life, in whatever way it is happening.
Thank you Apple. I am moving ahead in a number of ways.
First, I backed off from my son. I'm in neutral. But I am not texting. I made up my mind I will answer texts, that's it. Today he wrote,
Hi Mom.
I responded,
Hi.
Second. I got invited to participate in a divinity-type program at a hospital. And I said, "
No." That I wanted to wait until if and when it was the right time for me. So the man said, you'll start in September? And I clarified, No. It could be that the in future I participate but I won't know until I decide. I told myself,
what do I need that for? I'm enough as I am.
And with that I decided to start the private practice, something I have dithered about for 4 years. And I decided to use the whole house (a commercial office property that used to be a house) just for me. All of a sudden the sky cleared, and all of the barriers just melted away.
What do you need to do with your properties? Does this involve physical work on your part?
Thank you for asking, Apple.
I started working with M today. I cleaned windows. It was disgusting. I had to use goof off to remove glue and tape. And since the house is 100 years old there is a ceiling to how clean and wonderful the windows get. But I like the bamboo shades. You can see out really good, light comes in, and there is complete privacy at least during the day.
Where we are working now is the property where M is staying now, and where my son lives when he comes home. There are two dwellings there, a house and an apartment. I will rent the house and M and his brother in law will stay in the apartment, (and my son if he comes home). Finishing there for the most part entails cleaning the windows, fixing broken windows, mounting bamboo shades, getting the appliances and range hoods in place, buying closet doors, cleaning up, putting poly on the floors, and doing some basic landscaping. All of this has to be done for both the house and the apartment.
Then we will move to the office property. There we will do all of the same things, except I am thinking of refinishing the floor, and replacing the kitchen floor too.
Then I will furnish the office property.
I will need to make connections so that I am known in order to get work. But I want to have the office together and office systems in place, before I put myself in a position where people will want to work with me. I will speak with area physicians. I will do workshops/classes at the local Senior Center. I will go to Toastmasters. Of those three things, I will only start doing Toastmasters pretty soon. I love public speaking. I am going to do it to be "out there." Which is a huge sea change.
I mean, when I came to this forum I was in bed. I had been in bed already a year and a half. And I stayed in bed years more. I ask myself all of the time why I fell apart when my mother died. I still don't really know. On the FOO forum I tried to figure it out. I still don't know why somebody falls apart to the extent that I did. It was if I had to rebuild myself. And that, I guess, is the answer.
Thank you everybody. Thank you Apple.