last night the voices in my son's head told him to kill himself. he took a handful ? of aspirin and called 911. (he lives with his dad) the ambulance and police came. i spent all day sitting by his bedside, being there. he didn't talk much at all, he's a very quiet person. but when the nurse pulled me out to get info, he said "mom, she's going to show you inside my head from the chip in my brain." the psychiatrist came and asked him questions. he called for zoloft and risperdal. tomorrow they will either send him to the behavioral floor or another facility. a "sitter" is with him at all times. he can hear again. his kidneys are not functioning perfectly. the levels (of salicylate?) are going down, and that's good, the nurse said. his vitals are good. he loves care when he gets afraid, but he doesn't follow thru on his treatment plan. so - this voices and chip in his head first started in august, and he's been in er twice since then, once for an overnight, then the time before this they sent him home because he continues to smoke weed, so it is "voluntary psychosis." and now this, the suicide attempt. his dad said he'd NEVER give him weed again. i hope he means that. is that what this is? just too much using, and the autistic traits? or does this sound like he is developing a very serious mental illness? i probably asked this question back in august, i should scroll back, but now he is self harming. he is a danger to himself. and what can i expect from the system? a week in post acute, and a release? i remember on his release papers from the first time - "prognosis:fair" - something like that, even tho my son left the place fully intending to turn his life around. i don't know anywhere else i can go where people will understand what i am going thru than everyone here. and what do i say at work? nobody knows i have a son. do you all just say nothing, because you don't want to say too much? even at "oh, what high school did he go to?" i don't know how to answer that question.