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100% better than I was but not at 100% yet
As my son approaches his 25th birthday next week, I cannot help but to reflect on what we have been through as a family for the past ten years when as we say, our son went crazy.
We had a happy blended family; husband and I came into the marriage with one son each and our youngest was our son together. Our pride and joy. The tie that binds us all together.
Ten years ago, at the age of 15, our son stopped being who we knew him to be when drugs entered the picture.
It turned his life, our life and the lives of our other two sons upside down. It was a long and scary ride for all of us. Some of the most recent years are found in my signature. As we all know, there isn’t enough paper or print or energy to begin to write about everything that we go through as parents and as a family when addiction enters our lives. But we all know.
I feel so much compassion as I now read the stories of other parents going down a similar road that we went down. I wish I could say that I know the answer on how to fix this and there is no one answer as we all are so different but I do feel that it’s a new way of parenting that worked for us and was so completely opposite of everything we want to do that we felt “could work”. I do pray for all the parents that come here looking for answers and hope. I know that going through this strengthened my faith and my faith in turn gave me peace that I could not find any other way.
My son is doing so much better than I ever imagined now. He is in college full time pulling A’s and B’s and working part time. He sees a future for himself now. He seems like he found his old self. I honestly didn’t even know who he was during those years but I do know that I did not like him and I couldn’t bear to have him in my life.
I am so happy as I write this because I feel like we have come full circle in this ten years and I feel like with his maturity that only came with age, he is starting to know himself and even like himself too. COVID has not been a good thing but in many ways it has been good for us to bond with our son for the first time in many, many years.
Please keep reading and posting and don’t give up hope. Take care of yourselves and your spouses and other family members that are in this thing with you. Pray if you can even if you don’t think you know how because that could be the best thing for all of you.
We had a happy blended family; husband and I came into the marriage with one son each and our youngest was our son together. Our pride and joy. The tie that binds us all together.
Ten years ago, at the age of 15, our son stopped being who we knew him to be when drugs entered the picture.
It turned his life, our life and the lives of our other two sons upside down. It was a long and scary ride for all of us. Some of the most recent years are found in my signature. As we all know, there isn’t enough paper or print or energy to begin to write about everything that we go through as parents and as a family when addiction enters our lives. But we all know.
I feel so much compassion as I now read the stories of other parents going down a similar road that we went down. I wish I could say that I know the answer on how to fix this and there is no one answer as we all are so different but I do feel that it’s a new way of parenting that worked for us and was so completely opposite of everything we want to do that we felt “could work”. I do pray for all the parents that come here looking for answers and hope. I know that going through this strengthened my faith and my faith in turn gave me peace that I could not find any other way.
My son is doing so much better than I ever imagined now. He is in college full time pulling A’s and B’s and working part time. He sees a future for himself now. He seems like he found his old self. I honestly didn’t even know who he was during those years but I do know that I did not like him and I couldn’t bear to have him in my life.
I am so happy as I write this because I feel like we have come full circle in this ten years and I feel like with his maturity that only came with age, he is starting to know himself and even like himself too. COVID has not been a good thing but in many ways it has been good for us to bond with our son for the first time in many, many years.
Please keep reading and posting and don’t give up hope. Take care of yourselves and your spouses and other family members that are in this thing with you. Pray if you can even if you don’t think you know how because that could be the best thing for all of you.