Our youngest son just left to return to his home after staying several days. I am so grateful for the time we had together, but it is so hard to see him go. He is planning on moving across the country in March, so it's doubly hard. Our oldest son, Josh, is alone today. We have decided not to try to contact him, anticipating only verbal abuse in response. I'm trying to hold it together emotionally. I'm "talking to myself", reminding myself that each of our sons are not little boys anymore but grown men with their own lives; that Josh has chosen to be bitter and angry and to estrange himself from his family despite all our attempts to reach out to him; that we must go on with our lives and live them to the fullest even in the midst of the sadness. I will stay as busy as I can today, not allowing my thoughts to dwell on the distance between us and both our sons, whether physical or emotional distance. Just needed to vent a moment. I do want to express appreciation for those of you who have responded to my posts this past year. I wish you peace and joy today, even as you grieve for your Difficult Child.