I just can’t stop crying , I can’t focus on my little ones, my mind is consumed with thoughts of my son, I went driving around looking for him . I still haven’t reported it , even though I know it’s the right thing to do . I sent him about 50 messages begging him to come home but no response . I’m feeling helpless , I just needed to vent. I’m not sure why this hurts more then it ever did before .