Wow! It’s been since February I was on here last. So many new names! I didn’t mean to abandon everyone, I just kinda got busy with life. So…things were going well. I suppose the reality of the situation is that things still are going well…but the future remains to be seen. At this point, my son has been in Colorado a few years. He’s still with the same girlfriend. She’s an awesome girl as best I can tell and I love her to pieces. Jabberwockey (my husband’s name on this site for those new to me) and I have been out to Colorado two years to see them. Once when they were living with her parents, then once when they had their own place. More on them later. Jabber and I have moved on with life. Still working and at this point counting down to retirement. I’m working on what’s called the “backdrop”, having passed my retirement date March 1. Jabber starts Sept. 1. The backdrop is a lump-sum retirement you get after overworking your date…basically, they act like you retired on time and pay you the retirement you would have received, less taxes of course. It can be quite substantial and Jabber and I have decided to put it in deferred comp (saves taxes) sell our house and use the house proceeds to buy an RV…probably a 5th wheel trailer…and see the country for a few years. Just travel and be together. We’ll keep our hunting cabin as “home base”. It’s a plan. May not happen, but we’re working on it. We bought a little travel trailer just last Saturday! So we’ll play with that and learn the ins and outs of RV life with it. We lost our last little dog 4th of July weekend. He developed a tumor on a leg and it was just huge by the time we decided his quality of life was no longer there. Between that, seizures and being blind, it was time. We’re still really sad. But the bright side is he’s no longer suffering and we are no longer bound to a schedule and unable to travel or even go to a movie without working around his medication. So there’s that. So…back to my kid. The same day we lost the dog I got a call from his girlfriend in Colorado. He has some type of colitis and a HALF-INCH kidney stone! He’s having a procedure to cut it up with a laser and put in stents to be able to pass it on Aug. 2. He's got to have a colonoscopy soon too. So, of course he isn’t working. When they were in Co. Springs she had a full time job. He bounced from one restaurant to another, quitting, getting fired, etc. He wasn’t working when their lease was up, so they moved back with her mom. He’s had three jobs in the few months since then. Fired from Pizza Hut, quit Dominoes because of being sick and them refusing to let him off for appointments, fired from the last one – not sure where – because he called in sick after only two days. For a change, it really isn’t 100% his fault. Both Colitis and kidney stones are terribly painful. But still… A few days later I got a text from his girlfriend – asking advice. She’s carrying the whole load and is just so overwhelmed and her mom is giving her grief and of course she hasn’t just talked to him. So I told her to do that. I told her he needed to be scared about their future since it is HIM that needs to be helping. While I'm sure he isn't faking...something had to be done. She couldn't continue to carry the burden! They had to talk and figure this out together. Yesterday I was informed by him they are moving back here in October! Yes, the cost of living is nearly half Colorado. Yes, LOTS of places are hiring. No…I don’t want him to come back. I feel like the worst person. I love my son, but I like him a lot more from a distance. They haven’t asked to stay with us and if they do I don’t know what we’ll say…except that IF we said yes it would have a VERY FINITE time limit. He says they’ve been in Indeed and looked at jobs. He says they’ve been checking out places that accept pets. He says they’re saving for a pickup truck. (Got to be her saving, since he isn’t working.) Me? I’m having a bit of a panic attack. All my buzz from buying our trailer has gone and I’m just kind of – sad. I guess I’m just afraid that he’ll go right back to old habits. If he does, he’ll lose her. If he does, he’ll lose a lot more than her. Pot is still illegal here. The boy who would rather be homeless in Colorado than get a job and live like a typical human being in Missouri, is coming back a grown man – and I’m not sure he won’t go back to being that boy again. I’m so very afraid of it all beginning again. I want to ask HER if she is really okay with moving here! But, he's 24 and she's 21 and their relationship really isn't any of my business! I know that. But none of that stops me being worried...again. I'd gotten very used to not worrying. It was a nice feeling.