JKF
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Although I'm not friends with difficult child on Facebook I often check his page just for peace of mind. It makes me feel better when I see that he's online because at least I know he's not dead. Anyway, I just looked and here's his status. (I censored some bad words and removed easy child's real name but the rest is alllll difficult child......):
"My mom says she cares... That's a f'ing lie. You worry, yes. Care, not so much. If you cared, my child hood wouldn't have been as bad as it was. I would actually have someone I consider a "Mom"... You don't know what's its like, regardless of what you tell me. I have no one. My family doesn't care. If they did, they'd actually help me, instead of letting me burn. If it , was anyone else in my family who was in this situation, best believe I'd f'ing help them. I wouldn't be able to live with myself, knowing I can help, but not do a darn thing. What kind of f'ing mother refuses to help her own child, even after years of this sh*t. You know mom, if I were to never talk to you again, or show no emotion towards you or dad, that would be fine with me. Well, at least easy child has a f'ing family that cares. Because the same damn family he has is the one that abandoned me. I'm done, and if I die in this situation, you can f'ing live with that too. I already could have died once, next time... I won't be so lucky..."
And here I sit. Hurt. Stung. Sad. ANGRY! Like seriously f'ing ANGRY! How dare he?? He seriously thinks I've never helped him? He seriously thinks I don't care?? REALLY!??? I have been killing myself worrying about him. I have helped him more times than I can count and each time he's thrown it all away because he refuses to follow rules or do anything that's expected of him! He lies and steals and hurts everyone who tries to help him. And the part that I find the most f'd up is when he says he couldn't live with himself if he made the same decisions I am making. But he can live with himself after everything he's done to our family? After everything he did to my dad? I seriously can't even comprehend the insanity.........
I know what you're all going to say. Don't look at his Facebook. He's posting these things because he knows I'm looking and he wants to hurt me. And you're right. But in a way, as much as reading that hurts, it also makes me even more confident that I'm making the right decision by not stepping in to help him and save him this time.
"My mom says she cares... That's a f'ing lie. You worry, yes. Care, not so much. If you cared, my child hood wouldn't have been as bad as it was. I would actually have someone I consider a "Mom"... You don't know what's its like, regardless of what you tell me. I have no one. My family doesn't care. If they did, they'd actually help me, instead of letting me burn. If it , was anyone else in my family who was in this situation, best believe I'd f'ing help them. I wouldn't be able to live with myself, knowing I can help, but not do a darn thing. What kind of f'ing mother refuses to help her own child, even after years of this sh*t. You know mom, if I were to never talk to you again, or show no emotion towards you or dad, that would be fine with me. Well, at least easy child has a f'ing family that cares. Because the same damn family he has is the one that abandoned me. I'm done, and if I die in this situation, you can f'ing live with that too. I already could have died once, next time... I won't be so lucky..."
And here I sit. Hurt. Stung. Sad. ANGRY! Like seriously f'ing ANGRY! How dare he?? He seriously thinks I've never helped him? He seriously thinks I don't care?? REALLY!??? I have been killing myself worrying about him. I have helped him more times than I can count and each time he's thrown it all away because he refuses to follow rules or do anything that's expected of him! He lies and steals and hurts everyone who tries to help him. And the part that I find the most f'd up is when he says he couldn't live with himself if he made the same decisions I am making. But he can live with himself after everything he's done to our family? After everything he did to my dad? I seriously can't even comprehend the insanity.........
I know what you're all going to say. Don't look at his Facebook. He's posting these things because he knows I'm looking and he wants to hurt me. And you're right. But in a way, as much as reading that hurts, it also makes me even more confident that I'm making the right decision by not stepping in to help him and save him this time.
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