dear lms--first, good luck with the emdr.
there is a free offer with audible audio books that I am going to sign up for. for one month you get 2 free audio books. i am signing up for 2 courses on mindfulness. great books science of mindfulness by ron siegel and buddhas brain by hanson I think. they are each 12 or 13 hour courses. there are books too. i buy them used. if you are interested we can do the courses together. there are zero reasons that our mothers need to be in our heads--or anybody or anything else we don't want there. you can read about the courses on amazon. the siegel one was recommended to me, in particular.