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<blockquote data-quote="AddictionSucks123" data-source="post: 766273" data-attributes="member: 31168">Mothers do have it so rough. I haven't been on this site for a while as I joined a CRAFT (Community Reinforcement and Family Training) based addiction forum for family and friends of loved ones suffering.&nbsp; Most of the people on these sites and others are mothers.&nbsp; There are times when I feel like I am at breaking point but then I sleep, eat and try to watch a funny video or listen to some music, and think, I can do this again.&nbsp; Our son, has come back home to live with us so we can work on our relationship.&nbsp; There are good days and really rough days, especially when he has paranoia.&nbsp; That one is really tough as we aren't supposed to necessary acknowledge it but also not dismiss it.&nbsp; He said something interesting to me, he said, some times, he feels like a host.&nbsp; The addiction buries itself into his brain and body and lets him live but not live completely so it can continue to live the addiction.&nbsp; I felt so sad for him.&nbsp; He asked if I still recognize the person he used to be, because he says, he can't access that person anymore.&nbsp; Again, I had to fight off my tears and say, &quot;of course, I see you there!! I know you are in there and I know you can get through this&quot;.&nbsp; I look at this as a journey that I was gifted with.&nbsp; It has truly humanized me and made me so much more empathetic than I would have ever been.We can only do what we can do and we also need to meet ourselves where we are.&nbsp; I look at this forum and all the amazing people who research, make things happen, make connections with help facilitators and keep going another day.&nbsp;&nbsp; What an amazing group of people!!!!&nbsp; You all are Amazing.&nbsp; Heck, with all this strength and courage, united, we can really do some amazing work.&nbsp; I will be pushing toward research and science based treatment and advocacy to end the shame and stigma.&nbsp; We need something like DARE to advocate for our loved ones now.&nbsp; I think it is the right time.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="AddictionSucks123, post: 766273, member: 31168"] Mothers do have it so rough. I haven't been on this site for a while as I joined a CRAFT (Community Reinforcement and Family Training) based addiction forum for family and friends of loved ones suffering. Most of the people on these sites and others are mothers. There are times when I feel like I am at breaking point but then I sleep, eat and try to watch a funny video or listen to some music, and think, I can do this again. Our son, has come back home to live with us so we can work on our relationship. There are good days and really rough days, especially when he has paranoia. That one is really tough as we aren't supposed to necessary acknowledge it but also not dismiss it. He said something interesting to me, he said, some times, he feels like a host. The addiction buries itself into his brain and body and lets him live but not live completely so it can continue to live the addiction. I felt so sad for him. He asked if I still recognize the person he used to be, because he says, he can't access that person anymore. Again, I had to fight off my tears and say, "of course, I see you there!! I know you are in there and I know you can get through this". I look at this as a journey that I was gifted with. It has truly humanized me and made me so much more empathetic than I would have ever been. We can only do what we can do and we also need to meet ourselves where we are. I look at this forum and all the amazing people who research, make things happen, make connections with help facilitators and keep going another day. What an amazing group of people!!!! You all are Amazing. Heck, with all this strength and courage, united, we can really do some amazing work. I will be pushing toward research and science based treatment and advocacy to end the shame and stigma. We need something like DARE to advocate for our loved ones now. I think it is the right time. [/QUOTE]

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