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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 743849" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>I think adoption has been as hard on me as on my son. How? Because I have been as dependent upon him as he has on me. He is the light of my life and when he goes dark, it is like my own light dims. I am working very, very hard to exist and thrive apart from him. I really really believed that we had done this. That my love for him had made him strong, had helped him thrive, had insulated him from the worst. And then it turned out that this was in doubt. Because when it came time for him to stand on his own two feet, he resisted, and I had a hard time letting him hobble or fall. </p><p></p><p>I understand that this has to happen. He has to test himself and he has to risk, and I do too. I have to tolerate his stumbling and falling.</p><p></p><p>I think adoption affects this process a lot. Who will they be when we let go? If I let go will he remember my love? What are the forces that make somebody themselves? As long as we held on tight, or hold on tight, we have some control. When we let go, will genetics surge forth? Will the structure and impetus of our lives collapse? </p><p></p><p>When we adopted them the strength of our love for them, at least for me, felt biological. We were intensely connected from the first seconds. There was never any doubt. How frightening it is for them to move away from this. How frightening it is for us to trust, when we let go. I think bioparents don't have the same degree of doubt about attachment. Because it was not as-if biological. It was biological. Maybe our kids have the same insecurity.</p><p></p><p>I agree with SWOT. I think adoption is hard. I think parenthood is hard. I think adoptive parenthood is really hard.</p><p></p><p>I think that the abandonment our kids might struggle with is fear that we will abandon them. Not their bioparents. And I think I have fears of abandonment that get triggered too.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 743849, member: 18958"] I think adoption has been as hard on me as on my son. How? Because I have been as dependent upon him as he has on me. He is the light of my life and when he goes dark, it is like my own light dims. I am working very, very hard to exist and thrive apart from him. I really really believed that we had done this. That my love for him had made him strong, had helped him thrive, had insulated him from the worst. And then it turned out that this was in doubt. Because when it came time for him to stand on his own two feet, he resisted, and I had a hard time letting him hobble or fall. I understand that this has to happen. He has to test himself and he has to risk, and I do too. I have to tolerate his stumbling and falling. I think adoption affects this process a lot. Who will they be when we let go? If I let go will he remember my love? What are the forces that make somebody themselves? As long as we held on tight, or hold on tight, we have some control. When we let go, will genetics surge forth? Will the structure and impetus of our lives collapse? When we adopted them the strength of our love for them, at least for me, felt biological. We were intensely connected from the first seconds. There was never any doubt. How frightening it is for them to move away from this. How frightening it is for us to trust, when we let go. I think bioparents don't have the same degree of doubt about attachment. Because it was not as-if biological. It was biological. Maybe our kids have the same insecurity. I agree with SWOT. I think adoption is hard. I think parenthood is hard. I think adoptive parenthood is really hard. I think that the abandonment our kids might struggle with is fear that we will abandon them. Not their bioparents. And I think I have fears of abandonment that get triggered too. [/QUOTE]
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