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Adult son back in jail for the nth time
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<blockquote data-quote="detachingmother" data-source="post: 679602" data-attributes="member: 20063"><p>Son has all hallucinations. Auditory, visual, and paranoia in unbelievable ways. And sometimes its way worse than others.</p><p>Sometimes it's hard to distinguish between them all. Because while paranoid, he believes he sees FBI, ATF, DEA watching him, which is both paranoid and visual. Sometimes he's being "studied for his intelligence", sometimes it's other stuff. He even sees them up in trees.</p><p></p><p>He hears beeps and thinks they're all hidden microphones, and cameras. These are some examples. But with him they all collide and go together. One horrific thing was when he was 17 he killed a cat thinking it had microphones in it and he thought he heard them inside the cat. He also said he thought the cat was the devil. The cat was his girlfriends. He threw it against a brick wall. He did time for that too, oh I think 10 days, and out he went. This is just one more reason I don't think this will end well. It's not a stretch to wonder if he will think the baby has "microphone" in her. His Therapists know this, his attorney knows this, the judge knows this, and I'm guessing they will do what they always do and release him .... That incident literally floored me into tears, reduced to sobbing and crying. This was when I realized without a doubt the mental illness was taking on a whole new dimension.</p><p></p><p>One incident that stands out and has always made my skin crawl is him pulling at my hair thinking i had a microphone in my hair as I was driving him to a hospital. I feared for my life. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite3" alt=":(" title="Frown :(" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":(" /> This was about 2 years ago. They hospitalized him for a few days and out he went.</p><p></p><p>Sadly, our mental health system fails people on ALL levels. He needs to be locked up in a long term facility, but so far I've only been able to get them to keep him for up to 5 days. and that was involutarily with them know the full history.</p><p>Even if you have money, which I used to have, the system is not very helpful. I liken it to a temporary band aid.</p><p></p><p>I am so far scheduled to be at hospital when she gives birth. She wants me there. But, depends on how they both are treating me at the time. </p><p></p><p>I hate to say it but I'm more leaning toward not being in the lives of them, so need to possibly step back and let the cards fall where they will. I feel like I dont know what else I can possibly do to make things right.</p><p></p><p>It's been the case in the past ten years, son will only take his medications sporadically, he feels better, quits, then relapses and each time it's way worse than the last.</p><p></p><p>I love my son, writing about him like this hurts bad, but I just feel like I have no other recourse. I love to spend time with him when he's on medications, but that's almost never. How long can I keep having him hospitalized for him to get right back out almost instantly and for him to only go back to jail, refuse treatment and start all over again. Same stuff different day. Bad bad cycle.</p><p></p><p>I don't want to get attached anymore, and now to a new baby only to be let down. I would almost consider trying to get grand parent rights going, but again, I'm out of money. He spent all I have awhile back and I've not been able to get myself out of the hole yet.</p><p></p><p>Also, I do have a sense of responsibility to if he hurts someone else....but, I've talked to all the authorities, written letters, docs, nurses, therapists, and nothing changes. I feel like my hands are tied.</p><p></p><p>I do still have a slight hint of hope that MAYBE, Just maybe, this new judge will send him to inpatient long term care.</p><p></p><p>**when he does drugs, it's so much much worse, hard to describe. Very hard to put into words. Words just do not say enough.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="detachingmother, post: 679602, member: 20063"] Son has all hallucinations. Auditory, visual, and paranoia in unbelievable ways. And sometimes its way worse than others. Sometimes it's hard to distinguish between them all. Because while paranoid, he believes he sees FBI, ATF, DEA watching him, which is both paranoid and visual. Sometimes he's being "studied for his intelligence", sometimes it's other stuff. He even sees them up in trees. He hears beeps and thinks they're all hidden microphones, and cameras. These are some examples. But with him they all collide and go together. One horrific thing was when he was 17 he killed a cat thinking it had microphones in it and he thought he heard them inside the cat. He also said he thought the cat was the devil. The cat was his girlfriends. He threw it against a brick wall. He did time for that too, oh I think 10 days, and out he went. This is just one more reason I don't think this will end well. It's not a stretch to wonder if he will think the baby has "microphone" in her. His Therapists know this, his attorney knows this, the judge knows this, and I'm guessing they will do what they always do and release him .... That incident literally floored me into tears, reduced to sobbing and crying. This was when I realized without a doubt the mental illness was taking on a whole new dimension. One incident that stands out and has always made my skin crawl is him pulling at my hair thinking i had a microphone in my hair as I was driving him to a hospital. I feared for my life. :( This was about 2 years ago. They hospitalized him for a few days and out he went. Sadly, our mental health system fails people on ALL levels. He needs to be locked up in a long term facility, but so far I've only been able to get them to keep him for up to 5 days. and that was involutarily with them know the full history. Even if you have money, which I used to have, the system is not very helpful. I liken it to a temporary band aid. I am so far scheduled to be at hospital when she gives birth. She wants me there. But, depends on how they both are treating me at the time. I hate to say it but I'm more leaning toward not being in the lives of them, so need to possibly step back and let the cards fall where they will. I feel like I dont know what else I can possibly do to make things right. It's been the case in the past ten years, son will only take his medications sporadically, he feels better, quits, then relapses and each time it's way worse than the last. I love my son, writing about him like this hurts bad, but I just feel like I have no other recourse. I love to spend time with him when he's on medications, but that's almost never. How long can I keep having him hospitalized for him to get right back out almost instantly and for him to only go back to jail, refuse treatment and start all over again. Same stuff different day. Bad bad cycle. I don't want to get attached anymore, and now to a new baby only to be let down. I would almost consider trying to get grand parent rights going, but again, I'm out of money. He spent all I have awhile back and I've not been able to get myself out of the hole yet. Also, I do have a sense of responsibility to if he hurts someone else....but, I've talked to all the authorities, written letters, docs, nurses, therapists, and nothing changes. I feel like my hands are tied. I do still have a slight hint of hope that MAYBE, Just maybe, this new judge will send him to inpatient long term care. **when he does drugs, it's so much much worse, hard to describe. Very hard to put into words. Words just do not say enough. [/QUOTE]
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