It’s currently an option that’s available but they have to accept B into it first before we can even move forward. They could potential say it’s not a good fit. Then if we are accepted, we have to do a 2-3 hour intake, a tour and I have many questions that I need to ask. The agency were working with has some answers but not many to my questions : like drop off (Monday’s or Sunday’s?) we are expected to travel down on Wednesday’s and do CPS training with B (collaborative problem solving is their model- the same as the centre is using with B) and then again on Friday’s when we pick him up. I definitely need more information about it as far as what time we’re expected at(day or evening, the centre he’s currently at they’re only there til 3 so I’ve been doing it over the phone), who has to be there (can I come solo or do we both have to be there) and if that’s the case, what do we do with LO and T while we’re gone for 4-5 hours 2-3 times a week. On top of juggling work and life in general.
This centre seems to be more treatment based where the one he’s currently at is medical/diagnostic base. So I’m hopeful that they can work with B to fully implement the treatment suggestions and give B and us a head start.
I’m feeling both relief and anxiety. Relief that we’ll have more time to heal without B (I honestly think I need more time to find me without B) but also Relief that he’ll get the support he needs if he is going there. Anxiety/overwhelmed because that’s a huge commitment to one year- financially (gas, taking time off work, etc) and also on my other children. Then winter is coming and I’m super nervous about driving down consistently in that weather, we get a lot of snow . I don’t know if it’s even durable. Most of the information I’ve been given is secondhand information. I can’t even call until they approve the initial intake. Even after all is said and done- they could refuse him. I’m told they only want to work with families that are willing to work with them, motivated; which we are. Just trying to take one step at a time in various pathways. I want backup plans, and many so I’m not scrambling last min. It’s slowing down the process but my anxiety controls this aspect of me- I NEED plans, lots of them. I think living with B has partially caused that- we always have multiple plans when going out as a family: take two vehicles, only one child goes at a time, etc.
