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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 735531" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>To answer your question:. You know the odd thing?</p><p></p><p>I never considered myself as having had a drinking problem. It was something I did for a few years in my extreme youth. We worked at night and closed the bars after work, friends and I. It felt like a lifestyle, not an addiction. When I stopped drinking heavily, I stopped.</p><p></p><p>I continued to drink occasionally like wine over the years. While I enjoyed it, it did not control me.</p><p></p><p>It is only very very lately that I am thinking about this past in a far different light. Because I see I have always turned to compulsive, escapist even destructive behavior to handle strong emotions. I have always engaged in "somewhere over the rainbow" thinking. Like you say, to fill the void.</p><p></p><p>I have had a hard time staying present, anchored or grounded in self care. Or knowing who and what I was absent goals, or without the validation of others.</p><p></p><p>All of the this I am belatedly tying together and unhappily to my responses, reactions and attitudes to my son, let alone myself.</p><p></p><p>My son hates himself. Talk about pain.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 735531, member: 18958"] To answer your question:. You know the odd thing? I never considered myself as having had a drinking problem. It was something I did for a few years in my extreme youth. We worked at night and closed the bars after work, friends and I. It felt like a lifestyle, not an addiction. When I stopped drinking heavily, I stopped. I continued to drink occasionally like wine over the years. While I enjoyed it, it did not control me. It is only very very lately that I am thinking about this past in a far different light. Because I see I have always turned to compulsive, escapist even destructive behavior to handle strong emotions. I have always engaged in "somewhere over the rainbow" thinking. Like you say, to fill the void. I have had a hard time staying present, anchored or grounded in self care. Or knowing who and what I was absent goals, or without the validation of others. All of the this I am belatedly tying together and unhappily to my responses, reactions and attitudes to my son, let alone myself. My son hates himself. Talk about pain. [/QUOTE]
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