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<blockquote data-quote="Feeling Sad" data-source="post: 671711" data-attributes="member: 19245">I am okay.&nbsp; Just very tired after a busy week and down.My mom's birthday was Wednesday.&nbsp; She passed away 9 days before 9/11.I put money in my son's account Thursday.&nbsp; I am very sad about not having any contact or news for almost 5 months.&nbsp; I just made it out of the bank before I started crying.&nbsp; I do not even know if he will notice.&nbsp; It feels like my heart is being ripped out.He cannot help himself.&nbsp; He has an anosognosia and does not believe that he is ill.&nbsp; He feels that others are out to get him.&nbsp; You cannot do tough love with paranoid schizophrenics.&nbsp; His cognitive level has declined and he could be easily preyed upon.&nbsp; Also, his voices command him to do things and tear him down relentlessly.&nbsp; I cannot mentally let him go'.My ill son also has moderate hemophilia.&nbsp; If someone ever hit him in the stomach, groin, thigh, or especially his head...it could kill him.&nbsp; He does not carry a card or wear a bracelet.My pre diabetes, I fee,l is straight diabetes now.&nbsp; I am too afraid to go to the doctors.&nbsp; I have not been walking everyday because I had a therapist tell me that it was not safe.&nbsp; I have been watching my diet, but the lack of exercise and extreme, daily stress causes my condition to get worse.&nbsp; My lack of sleep is detrimental, as well.I am past my checkup date for my brain MRI, with and without contrast to check that my tumor has not returned.I woke up this morning and was VERY DIZZY just lying down.&nbsp; It could perhaps be diabetes, but it scared me because dizziness was the first sign of my brain tumor.&nbsp; The whole room kept spinning very quickly.I called an emergency sp. Ed. Staff meeting for one of my student's escalating behaviors...including a new one.&nbsp; Self mutilation.It is difficult to write when I write reports, evaluations, charts, and stats all week.&nbsp; I have total burn out.Thank you for your concern.&nbsp; I am just very down, lonely, tired, and scared.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="Feeling Sad, post: 671711, member: 19245"] I am okay. Just very tired after a busy week and down. My mom's birthday was Wednesday. She passed away 9 days before 9/11. I put money in my son's account Thursday. I am very sad about not having any contact or news for almost 5 months. I just made it out of the bank before I started crying. I do not even know if he will notice. It feels like my heart is being ripped out. He cannot help himself. He has an anosognosia and does not believe that he is ill. He feels that others are out to get him. You cannot do tough love with paranoid schizophrenics. His cognitive level has declined and he could be easily preyed upon. Also, his voices command him to do things and tear him down relentlessly. I cannot mentally let him go'. My ill son also has moderate hemophilia. If someone ever hit him in the stomach, groin, thigh, or especially his head...it could kill him. He does not carry a card or wear a bracelet. My pre diabetes, I fee,l is straight diabetes now. I am too afraid to go to the doctors. I have not been walking everyday because I had a therapist tell me that it was not safe. I have been watching my diet, but the lack of exercise and extreme, daily stress causes my condition to get worse. My lack of sleep is detrimental, as well. I am past my checkup date for my brain MRI, with and without contrast to check that my tumor has not returned. I woke up this morning and was VERY DIZZY just lying down. It could perhaps be diabetes, but it scared me because dizziness was the first sign of my brain tumor. The whole room kept spinning very quickly. I called an emergency sp. Ed. Staff meeting for one of my student's escalating behaviors...including a new one. Self mutilation. It is difficult to write when I write reports, evaluations, charts, and stats all week. I have total burn out. Thank you for your concern. I am just very down, lonely, tired, and scared. [/QUOTE]

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