Forums
New posts
Search forums
What's new
New posts
New profile posts
Latest activity
Internet Search
Members
Current visitors
New profile posts
Search profile posts
Log in
Register
What's new
Search
Search
Search titles only
By:
New posts
Search forums
Menu
Log in
Register
Install the app
Install
Forums
Parent Support Forums
Parent Emeritus
Feeling Sad---Son is Homeless
JavaScript is disabled. For a better experience, please enable JavaScript in your browser before proceeding.
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly.
You should upgrade or use an
alternative browser
.
Reply to thread
Message
<blockquote data-quote="Feeling Sad" data-source="post: 710587" data-attributes="member: 19245"><p>Thank you, Pigless. Yes, like Cola said, I feel that if he is suffering, that I should help him because it is my fault. He did have a bad childhood, not all of it, but some. I tried my best. I think that I can't get over my mother's guilt. I feel that I am responsible for all 3 of my sons. I feel guilty being in a bed while I now have 2 sons living in their cars.</p><p></p><p>The part that is so very frustrating is the he got a prescription finally and then dropped out of school and gave up the job offer they had lined up for him after doing research.</p><p></p><p>If he had just stayed on the antidepressants when he went up north to school. He would have done better. I think that finding out about my eldest talking with his voices about killing me and the restraining order pushed him deeper into depression. After that, he took a nose dive with his studies.</p><p></p><p>Yes, he is responsible for himself. So am I. In the past, I have been very positive, even though I have gone through difficult times. I have always bounced back. I am extremely Pollyannaish. Is that a word? Even after my brain surgery. </p><p></p><p>But, I feel that this time, it has taken more out of me. My ill son being gone has caused constant grief. It has almost been 2 years since I saw him or had any contact. I fear I never will again.</p><p></p><p>But now, I feel changed. I feel pessimistic. I am waiting for the next downfall. I also feel very guilty. I shouldn't. I was a very good mother overall. I was just a bit wounded. I have had a lot of trauma for the last 50 years. I should forgive myself and take care of myself like Wisernow wrote about.</p><p></p><p>I ache for both of my eldest sons. I miss my youngest being home, but he is very happy, so I am glad for him. </p><p></p><p>I am also alone for the first time in my entire Iife. The house is silent, empty, and spooky. All of my wonderful antique portraits look scary now. I just have too much time to reflect. I have to read several fat books for my summer seminars, but it is very difficult to concentrate. I have a lot of delayed maintenance, but I don't care right now. Besides, who is going to see it?</p><p></p><p>I can only be here for my middle son, if he wants to contact me. He texted me 3 or 4 times about dropping out in 10 minutes on Saturday, before I finally saw his last time he texted it. I hate texting and am very slow. I didn't see his other texts. I missed out on saying more. I miss voices on the phone. Texting seems so cold and distant. It makes me feel more lonely.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Feeling Sad, post: 710587, member: 19245"] Thank you, Pigless. Yes, like Cola said, I feel that if he is suffering, that I should help him because it is my fault. He did have a bad childhood, not all of it, but some. I tried my best. I think that I can't get over my mother's guilt. I feel that I am responsible for all 3 of my sons. I feel guilty being in a bed while I now have 2 sons living in their cars. The part that is so very frustrating is the he got a prescription finally and then dropped out of school and gave up the job offer they had lined up for him after doing research. If he had just stayed on the antidepressants when he went up north to school. He would have done better. I think that finding out about my eldest talking with his voices about killing me and the restraining order pushed him deeper into depression. After that, he took a nose dive with his studies. Yes, he is responsible for himself. So am I. In the past, I have been very positive, even though I have gone through difficult times. I have always bounced back. I am extremely Pollyannaish. Is that a word? Even after my brain surgery. But, I feel that this time, it has taken more out of me. My ill son being gone has caused constant grief. It has almost been 2 years since I saw him or had any contact. I fear I never will again. But now, I feel changed. I feel pessimistic. I am waiting for the next downfall. I also feel very guilty. I shouldn't. I was a very good mother overall. I was just a bit wounded. I have had a lot of trauma for the last 50 years. I should forgive myself and take care of myself like Wisernow wrote about. I ache for both of my eldest sons. I miss my youngest being home, but he is very happy, so I am glad for him. I am also alone for the first time in my entire Iife. The house is silent, empty, and spooky. All of my wonderful antique portraits look scary now. I just have too much time to reflect. I have to read several fat books for my summer seminars, but it is very difficult to concentrate. I have a lot of delayed maintenance, but I don't care right now. Besides, who is going to see it? I can only be here for my middle son, if he wants to contact me. He texted me 3 or 4 times about dropping out in 10 minutes on Saturday, before I finally saw his last time he texted it. I hate texting and am very slow. I didn't see his other texts. I missed out on saying more. I miss voices on the phone. Texting seems so cold and distant. It makes me feel more lonely. [/QUOTE]
Insert quotes…
Verification
Post reply
Forums
Parent Support Forums
Parent Emeritus
Feeling Sad---Son is Homeless
Top