Dash,
I think that you have taken all the advice given, listened pro-actively and knowing your own daughter with your own life experiences the most as your card catalogue to draw from - made the most informed decision of what's best to do for you - and I really really like the compromise. Brilliant actually. I'm thinking you never fell off the Warrior Mom wagon. lol. I hadn't forgotton that you were a photographer. I still have hanging in my hall my very own dashcat original framed in a lovely black and silver adorned frame that one I received with it's own orignial poem and I cherish it. Hauntingly beautiful. When we lost Steven? I'll never know if he'd been drinking because he'd burned alive behind the wheel but people that saw him moments before he veered off the road (for unknown reasons) said he'd been fighting verbally with his Uncle (who also died in the accident) -along with another boy. Left a lot of questions - I can't ever get answers to. I'm sure your ex has seen way more than his share of tragedy in his line of work. Tragic doesn't begin to cover it does it?
I'm hoping the babysit comment wasnt' hurtful. I thought about that last night and it rolled in myhead like - Well you could have come up with something a LOT nicer than that Star. Sheesh - all the words you could have picked and that was the one you gave? I mean we are here to UPLIFT each other, and I think in the heat of the moment on occasion we try so hard to make each other see in passion what we are trying to say it comes out very, very wrong, and ugly. Then we only end up hurting the other - and not making a valid point AT ALL...but rather rubbing each others nose in it - so to speak. My choice of word today after slapping my head for being so crass would have been - MONITORING - NOT...babysitting. Please accept my heartfelt apology - because I only truly made myself look like a jerk. Not my intention. When you can forgive me - I hope you will do so. You're an excellent Mother, you have a super ginormous heart. you have never given anything but loving and helpful advice to any of us hear and I am glad that you are a part of this board....
shame on me.
THanks for reading if you got this far. Wouldn't blame you if you didnt.
Much love - from my heart - I'm truly sorry I really have no excuse but ten- codes, for five agencies and such are really killing me - and .....well that's my problem.
Star
