Momnotlivingthedream - My heart is breaking for you as I know also EXACTLY your feelings..
. My son is only 22 and had been in jail 3 times already and had been doing great last 2 years. Luckily they were short stays and his last one when he was 20 was 14 days and ended up in a mental ward for the weekend. He appeared to have learned from the last one and he had a solid lovely girlfriend that took the weight from me, but he left her because he went back to his pot and she was a clean girl, who can blame her? So he has stayed out of jail at least for 2 years, but a roller coaster up/down and I feel like I'm watching a train wreck in slow motion. Know we are here for you and you will make it through. He has to learn by himself, whatever that takes. My son has been on his own now and couch surfing now for 4 months, moved erraticly from FL to San Diego, then back. Now from Florida to great Las Vegas, which has alot of jobs for him, but my worst fear is that he will wreck there in sin city. I feel despair most days although this site has helped me to detach. It is the most difficult thing we will every try..I am sending you a big hug and tears because I cry daily in my bed at night for my son because we did not raise him to be this way either. I know you are a great parent, can tell already!!!! Pray for us all here too. We all understand your pain and loss to detach from your son. I am praying for a miracle with my son every moment. God bless.
