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My heart grieves for you and all of us as i read your emotional post. I've asked why...but i know there really are no answers. I've suffered through the guilt of trying to find what I did wrong. Surely, there must be something I did to cause this. I know no one is perfect. But I loved and treasured my children. Supported them and did the very best I could. I am sorry for your pain. It is awful, and so consuming. I've found some things that have made my life better. I go to a therapist. I belong to a church and the choir. I'm starting to feel like I can breathe again. There IS more to life. I am trying not to wallow in the awful sadness. It will still drag me down occasionally, but my head is above water most of the time. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
