Nancy, I really hesitate writing this. And if it's the wrong thing to write, please use your magic moderator "delete" button and vanquish it from the universe.
I know you are hurt and angry and I know that those feelings are heightened 100x by the anxiety and fear of your daughter spiraling out of control yet again and all the things that go with it. So many of us have walked the walk of things getting worse followed by worse-er and we deal with the knowledge that every downward sign is often the beginning of another big drop. So I am not discounting that in any way. And I acknowledge and honor your feelings of disgust and betrayal and worry.
That said; she's keeping it together. I know that may be just for now; gotcha. But she is keeping it together. And working and doing well at work. And she returned the dog. These are all good things she has done and she owns. And I do not mean to suggest that they outweigh the other - no way. But, you have always been so good about reminding us that rehab is a process, that it often takes repeated treatments, that with each relapse and recovery, they learn a little more, build a little higher ground to start from next time.
So that is what I am reminding you right now. She is on a precipitous path - but it's not the darkness that it was a year ago. And yes, be wary and be ready and DETACH. And lean on us. But it's clear she has learned and grown since then and that growth maybe overshadowed, but it will not be lost forever. Believe in that when you cannot & should not believe in her.
And know I care very deeply.
And most of all, take care of you. Please, pretty please. You are a dear friend,
XXOO
