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<blockquote data-quote="BusynMember" data-source="post: 659656" data-attributes="member: 1550">I didn't even think of going to jail or I never would have done it. As it was, I knew nobody was going to tell my mother because Sis would have gotten into trouble too.But, man, what was I thinking? What a lame thing to do. It was so wrong on so many levels and went against my own values. I do not think drinking is good...why did I help her drink?Because I wanted her to like me.And that is no excuse at all. See what a mess I was? I think the 20s were my worst years, even worse than when I lived in that loonybin. At least I understood the craziness of my house rules as they pertained to me when I was there. Now the world was a whole different experience. I was not taught how to be an adult in t he real world and my childhood was a fantasy. And, unlike some people, I did not pick up social norms well. On top of everything else, and I'm hardly looking for pity, I am not quite neurotypical so I don't learn by copying what others do. Made it doubly hard for me. I think my 20s were more crazy and chaotic than most 20s because I was trying to survive in the wilderness, so to speak. The world was a wilderness and very alien to what I'd known...Again, flogging myself for what I did just to try to make my sister like me. What a waste. What a bad thing for me to do. It's not like I WANTED her to drink. I never drank. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. This time at me.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="BusynMember, post: 659656, member: 1550"] I didn't even think of going to jail or I never would have done it. As it was, I knew nobody was going to tell my mother because Sis would have gotten into trouble too. But, man, what was I thinking? What a lame thing to do. It was so wrong on so many levels and went against my own values. I do not think drinking is good...why did I help her drink? Because I wanted her to like me. And that is no excuse at all. See what a mess I was? I think the 20s were my worst years, even worse than when I lived in that loonybin. At least I understood the craziness of my house rules as they pertained to me when I was there. Now the world was a whole different experience. I was not taught how to be an adult in t he real world and my childhood was a fantasy. And, unlike some people, I did not pick up social norms well. On top of everything else, and I'm hardly looking for pity, I am not quite neurotypical so I don't learn by copying what others do. Made it doubly hard for me. I think my 20s were more crazy and chaotic than most 20s because I was trying to survive in the wilderness, so to speak. The world was a wilderness and very alien to what I'd known... Again, flogging myself for what I did just to try to make my sister like me. What a waste. What a bad thing for me to do. It's not like I WANTED her to drink. I never drank. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. This time at me. [/QUOTE]

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