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<blockquote data-quote="BusynMember" data-source="post: 660094" data-attributes="member: 1550">Morning, ladies.I've got my morning joe and am ready to go to work. I don't have to be there until an hour later today.I am feelillng really good this morning. It's like all the other times that Sis cut me off. Each one was a trauma and I only understand the first time she did it, although in a functional family it would not have played out that way. At least, I don't think it would have.But today the horror and shame of her doing it again (and I always know it's stupid of me to give her that much power in my life) is truly fading. This always happens eventually and then I go on and quite well. The problem happens when she comes back to inevitably do it again and then&nbsp; cycle&nbsp; repeats itself.This time I feel better sooner because I know the cycle can never repeat itself unless I allow it and I never will again. That comforts me. I had the answer all along and I didn't know it. The answer was to get away and choose peace.Why did it take me so long to learn???? I really struggle with why I didn't choose the &quot;get away from it&quot; option long ago. I guess I thought it was wrong to do it to your family, no matter what.But that's in a &quot;good enough&quot; family. I am doing the right thing for me. I am strong today, ready for work with great co-workers, and ready to take on the rest of my therapy and healing. I have come so far, but not far enough. There is always room for bettering your life.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="BusynMember, post: 660094, member: 1550"] Morning, ladies. I've got my morning joe and am ready to go to work. I don't have to be there until an hour later today. I am feelillng really good this morning. It's like all the other times that Sis cut me off. Each one was a trauma and I only understand the first time she did it, although in a functional family it would not have played out that way. At least, I don't think it would have. But today the horror and shame of her doing it again (and I always know it's stupid of me to give her that much power in my life) is truly fading. This always happens eventually and then I go on and quite well. The problem happens when she comes back to inevitably do it again and then cycle repeats itself. This time I feel better sooner because I know the cycle can never repeat itself unless I allow it and I never will again. That comforts me. I had the answer all along and I didn't know it. The answer was to get away and choose peace. Why did it take me so long to learn???? I really struggle with why I didn't choose the "get away from it" option long ago. I guess I thought it was wrong to do it to your family, no matter what. But that's in a "good enough" family. I am doing the right thing for me. I am strong today, ready for work with great co-workers, and ready to take on the rest of my therapy and healing. I have come so far, but not far enough. There is always room for bettering your life. [/QUOTE]

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