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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 666337" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>I think that I do matter to that person. There is something that I have that she wants.</p><p></p><p>But at the end of the day, I am still me and she is still her. However much she might want to diminish me, she cannot. *I want to tell her that I am very pretty, too.</p><p></p><p>I am not easily dismissed or diminished. Even though I helped her along by dismissing myself I can decide differently at any moment I choose. Her authority over me is in her mind, only.</p><p></p><p>She must take the same power over position with others that she sought to do over me.</p><p></p><p>Some people operate in dark alleys. By surprise. Anybody can be assaulted in the dark.</p><p></p><p>It is helpful for me to think of at as such. Of course that kind of attack would hurt anybody. And it is a visceral and automatic response to defend oneself by running away or even to fight back.</p><p></p><p>These people operate anonymously. With masks on. There is not real power or authority there.</p><p></p><p>So, now I feel better. I forgive myself. I was mugged in an alley. I felt momentarily hurt. I reacted defensively. It was not personal. I could have been anybody who had something this person envied, or feared. I was a victim of a small and minor crime. Nothing more. She took nothing of value from me. Unless I give it to her. I will not.</p><p></p><p>I forgive myself.</p><p></p><p>I now see that I am not at fault because I reacted. I am not at fault for momentarily feeling powerless and afraid. That would be the very human response of anybody to being mugged.</p><p></p><p>Actually I was set up by somebody else. Who unknowingly participated as a conduit for victimization by a small time bully. It was the surprise of it.</p><p></p><p>I forgive myself for all of it.</p><p></p><p>In my heart, I wish it would happen again and again so I can practice. Now that I think about it, I think I need to decide to keep posting and posting. That would be the powerful thing to do. Unafraid.</p><p></p><p>I will no longer except with you and Serenity, read private messages. The only thing to do is to do everything in the light of day. Out in the open. And trust the community.</p><p></p><p>Thank you, Serenity and Cedar.</p><p></p><p>COPA</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 666337, member: 18958"] I think that I do matter to that person. There is something that I have that she wants. But at the end of the day, I am still me and she is still her. However much she might want to diminish me, she cannot. *I want to tell her that I am very pretty, too. I am not easily dismissed or diminished. Even though I helped her along by dismissing myself I can decide differently at any moment I choose. Her authority over me is in her mind, only. She must take the same power over position with others that she sought to do over me. Some people operate in dark alleys. By surprise. Anybody can be assaulted in the dark. It is helpful for me to think of at as such. Of course that kind of attack would hurt anybody. And it is a visceral and automatic response to defend oneself by running away or even to fight back. These people operate anonymously. With masks on. There is not real power or authority there. So, now I feel better. I forgive myself. I was mugged in an alley. I felt momentarily hurt. I reacted defensively. It was not personal. I could have been anybody who had something this person envied, or feared. I was a victim of a small and minor crime. Nothing more. She took nothing of value from me. Unless I give it to her. I will not. I forgive myself. I now see that I am not at fault because I reacted. I am not at fault for momentarily feeling powerless and afraid. That would be the very human response of anybody to being mugged. Actually I was set up by somebody else. Who unknowingly participated as a conduit for victimization by a small time bully. It was the surprise of it. I forgive myself for all of it. In my heart, I wish it would happen again and again so I can practice. Now that I think about it, I think I need to decide to keep posting and posting. That would be the powerful thing to do. Unafraid. I will no longer except with you and Serenity, read private messages. The only thing to do is to do everything in the light of day. Out in the open. And trust the community. Thank you, Serenity and Cedar. COPA [/QUOTE]
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