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In a totally new place and need perspective? Cedar? Anyone?
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<blockquote data-quote="BusynMember" data-source="post: 666575" data-attributes="member: 1550"><p>Where are you today, Cedar and Copa? I sense the tide has turned for all of us and we are doing so well.</p><p></p><p>I'm in a grateful mood. Grateful that I saw what was going on in my family of origin so young. Grateful that I kept them away from my children, even before they disowned me or I disowned them. I am grateful I sought help early and feel successful that it helped me so much. I am grateful to be me. When I was younger I always wished I were somebody else...somebody healthier, smarter, calmer, better. Today I am happy to sit in my own skin with MY family of choice, MY creativity and talents, MY personality, MY emotions, MY world. I had a long journey and am grateful I made it. </p><p></p><p>I am just so grateful that I built on the insight that something was wrong with myself (there is) and my family unit as a whole as early as six. I knew I was different. And I k new they were different too. If I had started my healing later than my first therapist, at 23, I may have not made it. I was fighting a serious mood disorder, neurological differences, and a family that was destined to blame me for it's own dysfunction and so I disconnected earlier than the rest and ended up happy.</p><p></p><p>I am grateful for the therapists who helped me when I had no support system, for Codapendents Anonymous, for the psychiatrist that talked me into trying paroxatine when I felt it wouldn't work, to the extremely incredible psychiatrist I had while in the hospital at 23 (he just rocked...he is an angel, I'm sure), to my self-help groups, to my BFF who is also an angel now and to my newest dear friends, Cedar a nd Copa.</p><p></p><p>I still struggle. With a mood disorder, medications help. They can not stop the little ups a nd downs. I still have down days, but they are so much less intense and so much more manageable. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectal Behavioral Therapy (that spawned the concept of mindfulness and radical acceptance...even beyond Buddhism) have helped build me a tool box. </p><p></p><p>Today, my world is full of happiness and I plan on seeing my youngest bundle of love, Buddha Baby in September. So far it's been once a month. </p><p></p><p>And Friday I turn 62 and feel 32. Ok, well, maybe 39 <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite2" alt=";)" title="Wink ;)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=";)" /> </p><p></p><p>I am grateful for every day.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="BusynMember, post: 666575, member: 1550"] Where are you today, Cedar and Copa? I sense the tide has turned for all of us and we are doing so well. I'm in a grateful mood. Grateful that I saw what was going on in my family of origin so young. Grateful that I kept them away from my children, even before they disowned me or I disowned them. I am grateful I sought help early and feel successful that it helped me so much. I am grateful to be me. When I was younger I always wished I were somebody else...somebody healthier, smarter, calmer, better. Today I am happy to sit in my own skin with MY family of choice, MY creativity and talents, MY personality, MY emotions, MY world. I had a long journey and am grateful I made it. I am just so grateful that I built on the insight that something was wrong with myself (there is) and my family unit as a whole as early as six. I knew I was different. And I k new they were different too. If I had started my healing later than my first therapist, at 23, I may have not made it. I was fighting a serious mood disorder, neurological differences, and a family that was destined to blame me for it's own dysfunction and so I disconnected earlier than the rest and ended up happy. I am grateful for the therapists who helped me when I had no support system, for Codapendents Anonymous, for the psychiatrist that talked me into trying paroxatine when I felt it wouldn't work, to the extremely incredible psychiatrist I had while in the hospital at 23 (he just rocked...he is an angel, I'm sure), to my self-help groups, to my BFF who is also an angel now and to my newest dear friends, Cedar a nd Copa. I still struggle. With a mood disorder, medications help. They can not stop the little ups a nd downs. I still have down days, but they are so much less intense and so much more manageable. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectal Behavioral Therapy (that spawned the concept of mindfulness and radical acceptance...even beyond Buddhism) have helped build me a tool box. Today, my world is full of happiness and I plan on seeing my youngest bundle of love, Buddha Baby in September. So far it's been once a month. And Friday I turn 62 and feel 32. Ok, well, maybe 39 ;) I am grateful for every day. [/QUOTE]
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