Hi Serenity
I am here but about to leave to go to the UPS store.
I do not know where Cedar is.
I feel very grateful, too. I feel so much better. I am waking up feeling neutral. Not like I do not want to wake up or worse, like I want to die. Not even sad. I am almost happy.
I am working every day in the house. I have more energy and hope.
I do not yet know what is next for M and I, but once we work our way through the responsibilities of these next two months, we will see.
I may even decide to start doing some fun stuff. Getting into serious reading. Going to needlework classes. Getting out with the dogs. I am grateful.
I replied to your thread about Sis. It helped me put to bed some sadness about my own sister. I have been missing her, since I have been in touch with the sadness for her...and not seeing her as an enemy.
The thing is, it does not work if only one of us, renounces the old terms. Both have to. I do not know if my sister is willing or capable. Maybe someday I will be strong enough to risk...but it is not yet safe.
My fear with my sister is that she will have a great deal of anger with me around my mother's decline and death, and afterwards. I do not do well with people mad at me. Especially her. She is very, very scary to me.
I will check back later tonight. This is your birthday week, Serenity. We will celebrate the rest of the week. I am singing Happy Birthday right now (really) with Stella, the cat.
COPA
