Yes, thanks. This meltdown was far more ferocious than usual, frightening in intensity... I feel bad that I could not really contain J in it - his anger and aggressiveness brings up an almost unstoppable fear/anger response in me and for all my good intentions, I just got angry in the end because he was throwing sticks to try and break the television, etc. Yet I can see that there is a price to be paid for not staying the course unjudgementally and calmly, however near-impossible that may actually be... J was very withdrawn from me today, won't let me touch him and is playing his tough guy role, which is just a defence.
First day of 18 mg today and no apparent effects other than that he vomited about 7 hours after he'd taken it... he seems slightly less hyperactive. Onwards we go...
