Reply to thread

Message: <blockquote data-quote="ANewLife4Me" data-source="post: 765413" data-attributes="member: 32799">Thank you for sharing that with me, all of you have been through so much! <img class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" alt="🤗" title="Hugging face    :hugging:" src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/6.6/png/unicode/64/1f917.png" data-shortname=":hugging:" /> At this time I don’t think there will be a turn around for my daughter will explain.Mental illness runs in my family, my brother and my daughter are the worst cases. She started off very young pulling away from us and not wanting to be involved in whatever we were doing/going. She had troubles in school and we began with a school social worker. As years progressed we had no money to take her to a therapist or even a doctor for medication so we tried all the free things like counseling at community churches and tried to get her involved in events. Nothing we did worked and at about the age of 12 we found out she had been cutting herself but this time it was her wrists. Not deep enough for suicide but, just the process of what could have been shattered my world. I became hyper vigilant and anytime she spent more time in the bathroom I would knock on the door asking if she was alright. She became even more withdrawn and was having horrific visions of blood and murder, she was hearing voices. Around the age of 16 she came out to us that she was gay and had a girlfriend. We were shocked and accepted it but, she used every opportunity to throw it in our faces and use it as an excuse why we did not love her. Everything she did/does is our fault that we should of never had her. She and her girlfriend went to the same high school, we were moving. The girlfriends mother allowed my daughter to live with them so she could finish and get her diploma.  That is a whole other story that I wish would of not done. After graduating my daughter and her girlfriend eventually moved out and found their own place, they smoked weed and drank alcohol…..that I know of. Her girlfriend constantly complaining of my daughters mental and the day they broke up my daughter tried to get her to come back, they told her to leave through the window, when she said no and wanted to talk with her my daughter punched out the window causing severe damage to her cut tendons. Off to emergency then jail where I bailed her out that very same day, back to living with us.Since loosing that girlfriend and constantly wanting her back is when the real troubles began. She drank more alcohol, was even more psychotic, not sure if drugs were involved at that time. Begging and pleaded with her to let us help her, let’s go to counseling or take her to a doctor…she refused. I cannot remember everything but at one point had finally gotten her an apartment that she paid for. She had moved in a girl with her but that relationship too did not last even with a girl who had mental issues like her. She went to a bar and at first all they wanted was for her to leave but was eventually arrested for public disturbance/intoxication.  But! this turned into a felony because as she resisted the officer she licked him arm. Are we even serious!  Licked him arm gave her a felony!  We had to clean out her apartment as there was no bond and while doing so found a pot plant she was growing and a very large bottle of alcohol. <img class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" alt="😢" title="Crying face    :cry:" src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/6.6/png/unicode/64/1f622.png" data-shortname=":cry:" /> After getting out back at home with us. The next jail sentence was for DUI, each time in jail is getting longer and longer time. We had kicked her out of our house and she was living with other people who we did not know at the time were selling drugs and am sure she was taking them at this point. She would call me talking weird things and not remember the next day. She told me she was raped but said that she never said that, I was lying. She told me those people helped her out more than we did…..ouch! They too kicked her out after the DUI, right back to our house. Each time after coming back home to us we had to buy everything for her, a bed - clothes - pay her court fines - take her to all court appointments - early morning drug tests when the phone call she had to make daily told her she had to come in at any given moment. She took no responsibility for herself, we set an alarm and banged on the door to wake her up, got to the point we woke up early and made the phone call, we were so scared she would miss the day it told her to get tested and right back to jail. Court ordered DUI meetings, one was a video - horrific images of those killed by drunk drivers, my daughter laughed! She was court ordered to attend counseling and she said, am only doing this for the court, when it’s done so am I. She never returned again. I also went to AA with her and again, she did not participate she was just there to get her paper signed. Her license was suspended and we played like anything getting it back. She had gotten a job at 3 am and we would begin each day banging on her door and taking her back and forth. Each re-entry back into our lives was a major disruption.</blockquote>

Verification