I don't know if she feels bad. I thought Scott probably missed me in the five years we were seperated, but when we had our meeting he said he never thinks about us...he's too busy and has a new family now. I believe him. He made it very easy for me to finally move on. When I realized the coldness in his heart, I didn't want to see him anymore.
The best thing you can do for yourself is to see a therapist who can help you through this. They'll believe what they believe and you can't control that, but you can control yourself and have a great life even without her. She sounds coldhearted too, but I don't know the whole story. If I were you, I'd try very hard (it's NOT easy) to stop thinking about "why" or "what if." Try to do nice things for yourself. I don't think you think of yourself enough 
It's important that we do.
