I'm so sorry. I've heard similar stories. And yes, that urge to believe that the biological parents want us and love us is very powerful. It causes a person to deny the facts. I've heard stories like this before with parents who have adopted. Perhaps somewhere down the road, it will be different.
I agree, now it is Linda time. I believe you are close to certain relatives? If so, nurture any relationships with genuine and caring relatives and friends. Leave an open door, but detach and take extra EXTRA good care of yourself.
