I think this is an important insight. Do you think it might help you and your son if you think of your own behavior in terms of addiction and recovery, in the same way as your son is being taught in the recovery programs?
Perhaps in an Alanon group? As I was reading this part of your post I thought of the 12 steps. If you shifted focus to yourself, I believe you would begin to feel a great deal more peace, and eventually healing.
Yes, rebelson. I was this little girl, too:
I believe that there may be a link for you between what happened then, and is happening now. You are the link. The key is to changing is that you are no longer that little girl anymore. You have so much more capacity, and responsibility, as well.