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<blockquote data-quote="MommaTried24" data-source="post: 766182" data-attributes="member: 33205">Yes it is so hard. I know I did better when I completely detached. I've cried the last three days and now sit here wondering if he made it or not? I even stayed home from work today because I was so exhausted from it all. I never miss work. Ever. Texts earlier this morning revealed he spent 5 hours somewhere between being discharged and the program? He was supposedly on the bus to the program at 11 which is only 2 miles from the hospital in Nashville where he knows nobody? Makes me wonder if he's even telling the truth once again. I told him to text me and let me know when he got settled in. It's a 7 month program. Still no word and I've become numb (frozen) today after crying for three days. Trying to love someone who doesn't love themself is hard. As his mother I do feel a responsibility at times but also now feel that I should have stayed no contact.I always remind myself what I don't know won't hurt me. My sponsor reminded me today to release the need to know, cause therein there's much distraction. There are many things the knowledge of which is not good for the soul. My soul has been experiencing just that ever since I allowed my son to be back in touch. Nothing has changed in four years. I had three years of somewhat peace not knowing anything at all.I did a lot last week of what you all did Ksm. Flu and Covid shot too, voted, preplanned some things, etc. Praying God is watching over both of our troubled loved ones. Copa, I hope your rocky road with your son in the apartment gets easier and he starts to do better. Sending love to you both.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="MommaTried24, post: 766182, member: 33205"] Yes it is so hard. I know I did better when I completely detached. I've cried the last three days and now sit here wondering if he made it or not? I even stayed home from work today because I was so exhausted from it all. I never miss work. Ever. Texts earlier this morning revealed he spent 5 hours somewhere between being discharged and the program? He was supposedly on the bus to the program at 11 which is only 2 miles from the hospital in Nashville where he knows nobody? Makes me wonder if he's even telling the truth once again. I told him to text me and let me know when he got settled in. It's a 7 month program. Still no word and I've become numb (frozen) today after crying for three days. Trying to love someone who doesn't love themself is hard. As his mother I do feel a responsibility at times but also now feel that I should have stayed no contact. I always remind myself what I don't know won't hurt me. My sponsor reminded me today to release the need to know, cause therein there's much distraction. There are many things the knowledge of which is not good for the soul. My soul has been experiencing just that ever since I allowed my son to be back in touch. Nothing has changed in four years. I had three years of somewhat peace not knowing anything at all. I did a lot last week of what you all did Ksm. Flu and Covid shot too, voted, preplanned some things, etc. Praying God is watching over both of our troubled loved ones. Copa, I hope your rocky road with your son in the apartment gets easier and he starts to do better. Sending love to you both. [/QUOTE]

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