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the ball is in his court??
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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 727121" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>Thank you each of you. New leaf. You sound wistful. Thank you for your supportive words.</p><p></p><p>I read your post to feeling about the dreadful 38 minutes...was it...of horror. It's hard to even type the words...to enter into the reality that little bit...of what nobody should endure even in imagination. I am sorry.</p><p></p><p>So ready...you hit the nail...my staying present to his pain...which has been what I have been unable to do, or unwilling. Thank you for your vote of confidence.</p><p></p><p>Sam. Speaking of breathing...For the past few days I have been binge listening to the Buddhist teacher whose name autocorrect will not permit me to type. (He lives in plum village in france.)The hardest to listen to is staying present, to suffering. My son's and my own too.</p><p></p><p>I am thinking too of what is called gevurah...which I am learning is setting a boundary, among other things, in kabbalah. I guess why I fell apart is that setting a boundary felt like killing myself, killing who I love...when it was really standing up for him and asserting my love. And in this way modeling to him that I had faith, when in reality I did not but had to build it by whistling in the cold wind.</p><p></p><p>If this was easy we wouldn't be here.</p><p></p><p>Thank you.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 727121, member: 18958"] Thank you each of you. New leaf. You sound wistful. Thank you for your supportive words. I read your post to feeling about the dreadful 38 minutes...was it...of horror. It's hard to even type the words...to enter into the reality that little bit...of what nobody should endure even in imagination. I am sorry. So ready...you hit the nail...my staying present to his pain...which has been what I have been unable to do, or unwilling. Thank you for your vote of confidence. Sam. Speaking of breathing...For the past few days I have been binge listening to the Buddhist teacher whose name autocorrect will not permit me to type. (He lives in plum village in france.)The hardest to listen to is staying present, to suffering. My son's and my own too. I am thinking too of what is called gevurah...which I am learning is setting a boundary, among other things, in kabbalah. I guess why I fell apart is that setting a boundary felt like killing myself, killing who I love...when it was really standing up for him and asserting my love. And in this way modeling to him that I had faith, when in reality I did not but had to build it by whistling in the cold wind. If this was easy we wouldn't be here. Thank you. [/QUOTE]
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