Robby, there is nothing wrong with you. Nothing at all! Do NOT own this! I read your post and I could have written it word for word about my own life. Its not a good feeling, it hurts like heck and we just want it to stop. I cant put mine out either. I am afraid that he has no where to go. Your not alone.
BUT with that said husband comes first. Let him do this. Trust him.. support his decsisons. It is hard hard hard.
We are here to support you every step of the way.
Hugs
Grace
