Thank you, thank you, thank you Starb...I am sitting at work with tears in my eyes, realizing that you are so right and I so understand what you went through with Dude. Justin would always come out number one, even if I was dead and buried, too. So, I know what you mean about where do they fit in our "pictures" of our lives.
The only person I can change is myself and my responses to him. At the moment I haven't heard from anyone in CA at all today and it's nice. Probably just jinxed it, but who cares. I don't have to answer the phone since we have caller ID and an answering machine.
Nothing else I have tried has helped him or helped me. Yeah, there's a twinge of guilt, but not much. Anger, lots. Frustration, even more. But slowly but surely I will let go of all of it...
You are the best group of people I have ever been blessed to have in my life! And Star, really, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Vicki
