I just saw this BITS and thought of you (and me and a few others here)
It hurts when we realize that we were not loved in the way we deserved to be...........and it also will be empowering when you come out of the grief part and realize that you are free of that illusion now. As a friend of mine used to say, you just had an "illusionectomy." It hurts. Your heart will mend and it will be stronger and with the compassion you are developing for yourself, you will be able to offer that to others too.
You'll get past this as each of us here has......one step, sometimes one agonizing step after another, moment to moment until one day, you feel okay. It takes time. Stay in our circle of wagons BITS, we're all healing together.............you're not alone.
