This thread has been really interesting to me... I was diagnosis with Borderline (BPD) two years ago. My therapist disapointed me 9 months into therapy... I'm not seeing anyone now and on no medications. I am thinking about maybe a mood stabilizer though. My 20's were terrible years for me... I had a breakdown two years ago after my sister's sudden death and also had Mono at the same time. It was probably the lowest point of my life. And there have been MANY low points. Both of my parents died when I was a child, I had a very abusive step-mother, also abusive brother who raised me after our parents dies...(I hate to say that as I love my step-mother and brother very much but it's true). I also lost my second child when he was 3 months old when his child care provider propped his bottle and then left the house. I was 19 years old then. I have sever abandonment issues. I, also, found myself being borderline abusive to my precious 19 year old, when he was 2 to 3. I also went to parenting classes and got ahold of myself. I was so hurt, so angry and grieveing my father so very much. So much hurt... finally I realized that my anger was making me lose everyone I loved and who loved me. I started changing, by my own conscious efforts at around 19. I would say now, at 36, that I am pretty stable. I don't yell and scream, I don't hit... I don't cry and I don't cut myself anymore... it's been almost a year since I thought about driving into a tree and ending it all. Life is good. I love my family and I want to be healthy. It's still a struggle everyday of my life. Just wanted to add my two cents and say I understand. Hugs to you for sharing.