Well, it's been a couple weeks that difficult child's been gone. No phonecalls to apologize for his behaviour, no hello, nothing and he stops by today, completely hungover, all of his belongings in a backpack, looking terrible and with an attitude! We were all working on the yard and he waltzes in, looking for water and a phone. I'm sure he was looking for a place to stay, but i made it clear it wasn't happening. I think he blew off his job today, so that will be just one more thing.
I'm a little blue because it's Easter soon and we're going to the inlaws for a nice dinner with family. This is the first time that I haven't invited difficult child, nor have i included him in our Easter festivities. I'm just too angry and disappointed in him right now. When he is around, my stress level goes through the roof. Still, I somehow sit and feel like I'm doing something wrong. I know these are his choices, but i also know that he's not happy. I worry about how he will be able to get himself out of this life when he is homeless, but my husband says "he'll have to learn on his own how to make it work". We had him back in our home at least 3 times now and each time he lies and goes back to his ways. It's not only his substance abuse issues, it's his laziness, lack of respect, lying, and the list goes on...
I did offer to drive him to a shelter or to this place in our city that deals with addictions, etc... His response was "I don't need help", but can you drive me to the college (he goes there to use the computers). I didn't respond, I walked into the house and shut the door. I simply watched my homeless son, carry his belongings down the street until he disappeared.
Anyhow, I'm not looking for answers, i'm just venting my thoughts... Happy Easter all.
Missy
I'm a little blue because it's Easter soon and we're going to the inlaws for a nice dinner with family. This is the first time that I haven't invited difficult child, nor have i included him in our Easter festivities. I'm just too angry and disappointed in him right now. When he is around, my stress level goes through the roof. Still, I somehow sit and feel like I'm doing something wrong. I know these are his choices, but i also know that he's not happy. I worry about how he will be able to get himself out of this life when he is homeless, but my husband says "he'll have to learn on his own how to make it work". We had him back in our home at least 3 times now and each time he lies and goes back to his ways. It's not only his substance abuse issues, it's his laziness, lack of respect, lying, and the list goes on...
I did offer to drive him to a shelter or to this place in our city that deals with addictions, etc... His response was "I don't need help", but can you drive me to the college (he goes there to use the computers). I didn't respond, I walked into the house and shut the door. I simply watched my homeless son, carry his belongings down the street until he disappeared.
Anyhow, I'm not looking for answers, i'm just venting my thoughts... Happy Easter all.
Missy
