Holly10011
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This posting board has me very confused-Unsure where to follow-up. Guess Ill just try here. Sons birthday came and in a unexpected twist he called me . (must have been wondering why he'd not heard from mom on his birthday) I was polite but far from warm and loving the way I d been in past. I said happy Birthday here is your father- he asked why I was so short and not wanting to speak with him . REALLY ? Do you not recall that only a few weeks back your decided to tell me over Thanksgiving dinner that you dont like me ? I said that I would explain in an email . He said ok . Later I sent him the following " Recently my feelings have been very hurt and as a result I am focusing on trying to heal" I decided against going into detail about how much he hurt my feelings. He has such a swelled head that I dont even know if he is aware that I'm referring to him. Since, I have not heard one word . Nada. I have come to realize that he very well might be just fine with cutting us out 100%. It seemed that he was open to communication after he returned to SF but after some thought I concluded that I did not want to return to our normal email and occasional phone call as if nothing was wrong . I do not feel I want to allow him to spit on me with-o being challenged. It is just so difficult for me to comprehend HOW and or WHY this drastic change? I guess I should stop speculating on the unknown. Have been thinking of sending a short bland email just to start the ball rolling but then I ask myself FOR WHAT ? To hope to see him for 3 days next December and shake in m y boots hoping that he is not abusive............................
