Just let it lie for right now. Allow yourself the space to just feel your feelings, cry, pray (if you have a belief), turning your daughter over to your Higher Power, and tending to yourself.
It's our thoughts that do us in. What helps me is to stop the thoughts of fear, of rejection, of negativity, and to focus on something else instead. I can only hold one thought at a time. I owe it to myself to make it a good one. I am learning NOT TO BELIEVE my thoughts. Just because I can think it, does not mean it is true. I dismiss the thought by deliberately focusing elsewhere. I stop scaring myself with thoughts. Then , secondly, I come back to the present moment. Feel my legs, my arms , connect to my breath. Breathe deeply, 5 count in and 5 count out .
I am getting better at allowing things as they are and bring the focus back to me. What do I need in this moment? How can I work on myself? How and where do I grow? How do I learn to be a self differentiated adult ?
I find that my pain is mitigated by going inward and connecting to my higher power . Meditation has been an amazing tool to find peace in the midst of chaos.
