Star
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Star*
call 911........call 911
No word - nothing but thanks for thinking of us MB & all
A guy I work with that rides the bus to work came in my office and asked me if my son was 'okay' and I said "Um..dunno" (really didn't want to talk about it). Then he said that he thought he saw my son last night at the bus depot - described him to a T - with a duffel bag - and very upset. He knew his name, but didn't yell out "Hey Dude is that you?"
You would think - after that I'd be flattened - and somehow I just sat there I guess in disbelief - thinking could it, naw...really, ya think..he's not that savy...where did he get bus fare.....
And then the phone rang and my brain went into work mode - and after the call I sat here and thought - I'm not even going to do that negative projecting - can't think about it. Just can't.
Do you ever wonder if you just walked away from them and washed your hands completely if you'd be better off? Really.
A guy I work with that rides the bus to work came in my office and asked me if my son was 'okay' and I said "Um..dunno" (really didn't want to talk about it). Then he said that he thought he saw my son last night at the bus depot - described him to a T - with a duffel bag - and very upset. He knew his name, but didn't yell out "Hey Dude is that you?"
You would think - after that I'd be flattened - and somehow I just sat there I guess in disbelief - thinking could it, naw...really, ya think..he's not that savy...where did he get bus fare.....
And then the phone rang and my brain went into work mode - and after the call I sat here and thought - I'm not even going to do that negative projecting - can't think about it. Just can't.
Do you ever wonder if you just walked away from them and washed your hands completely if you'd be better off? Really.
Suz
(the future) MRS. GERE
Yes. I had many, many moments of wondering that. I made mental plans of what I'd do, where I'd go, how I'd feel. It was wonderful!
But I always came to my senses
because really, we love them and they are a part of us even when we detest their behavior and their choices.sigh.
And so we somehow gather our strength again.
Hugs Star. I hope he is safe.
Suz
witzend
Well-Known Member
Oh, Star... I'm sorry.
I'm probably more able to address this than many of the others, because that is where it is with M for now. I know that I am better off. I also hope that in time, were the situation to present itself, I, with my clean hands and calmer mind, would be more able to deal with him than I was in the past. And more confident that who he is and what he does belongs to him.
Time will tell, I suppose. What I do know is that none of it is easy, and he's always in the back of my mind.
I'm probably more able to address this than many of the others, because that is where it is with M for now. I know that I am better off. I also hope that in time, were the situation to present itself, I, with my clean hands and calmer mind, would be more able to deal with him than I was in the past. And more confident that who he is and what he does belongs to him.
Time will tell, I suppose. What I do know is that none of it is easy, and he's always in the back of my mind.
Steely
Active Member
Oh Star............I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts today, and I am praying that dude is safe and that rationale will settle in his mind. Words really cannot express how deeply you are on my heart.......particularly since your dude and mine are so close in age, behavior, and destiny. Sigh................
Abbey
Spork Queen
After reading your other post, I would have to say that I am the queen of detachment. I'm not saying that in a positive way, but in a survival way. After years of 
, I just couldn't do it anymore. I lost all expectations and all hope. It will take a lot of work to bring that back. The work is not going to be on my part. That is how jaded I am.
So, for once in 24 years I am putting MY needs above J. He can take the burden now.
Take care of yourself.
Abbey
, I just couldn't do it anymore. I lost all expectations and all hope. It will take a lot of work to bring that back. The work is not going to be on my part. That is how jaded I am.So, for once in 24 years I am putting MY needs above J. He can take the burden now.
Take care of yourself.
Abbey
