2025

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We are climbing into a new year quickly. I am grateful that we had a less stressful year this year. By no means do I mean a smooth sailing year, I mean a less stressful than the year before. I am still getting lied to. I have decided to not say anything and just stare at my daughter. If I call her out on her lies that is when things go bad really fast. Just staring at her kind of makes things smooth out quicker and sometimes she even back tracks to make things right. The last time she went horribly manic is when she was trying to date a guy. Having an on going relationship with a man keeps her in high mania. My daughter has been keeping up with her bills (knock on wood) and keeping a steady job and a few side jobs. Her house is better kept, (still not near what I think is clean) but for her ok. As long as she does not have a relationship with a man she does well. I would love for her to find a partner that can help her feel calm.
I am saying a prayer of gratitude that I have seen somewhat of an improvement. By no means am I saying it has been easy! When my daughter now age 42 goes off track it hurts me deeply.
My husband and I stay busy, almost too busy. Hopefully we can slow down a bit. This coming year my son would have been 44. He has been gone now 30 years and I miss him more than ever. His death never gets easier maybe a bit softer but always painful.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a blessed and easier New Year. Welcome 2025, Let the party begin.