thank you everyone.
Adrienne, work is my out too. It gives me a chance to think of something else.
I do have some calls to make today. I need to call and talk to his school counselor which I am not looking forward too. I talked to her the other day and hit a brick wall. The way she was talking about difficult child missing school days was like it was a disciplinary thing instead of mental health. She threatened me with educational neglect. She said they had never received school records from the Residential Treatment Center (RTC). I called the Residential Treatment Center (RTC) and the principal from there called me back and said she had a fax cover sheet showing where she sent it back in October. She was refaxing it with the same cover sheet. I asked about placing difficult child at a special school for the ED that the school district has, she said no way would she give a referral. School is a HUGE anxiety factor for difficult child. I think he would benefit greatly from the small classes there, as well as teachers that are familiar with kids with emotional problems. I don't care that difficult child has never shown explosive behavior at school. She told me that she NEVER sees at school what I have told her, I told her that was because the days he is at school he is doing ok, when he isn't he doesn't go. But anyway, I need to call her to get 2 weeks of school work for him so the homebound teacher at the psychiatric hospital can have him do it.
I am frustrated with difficult child though, he is trying to downplay the hallucinations. I told the admitting nurse last night that he might try that. Last night he called me before bed and he told me that he told the psychiatrist that he made them up. I am not buying it. Too many other things going on like paranoia and stuff to make me think otherwise. As well as how scared he seemed. He has told too many people about them too. He told his therapist, his sister's therapist, me, his grandparents. He said that if he thought it would end him up in there he wouldn't have said anything. But, he has been saying for several weeks that he was afraid that he was headed back to psychiatric hospital. psychiatrist and I had discussed at one of his last appts that we were both concerned that difficult child wouldn't admit to them. He had thought that difficult child was having them when he was in his office. I certainly hope that no one buys into his "I made them up" There are too many unstable things going on.
I found a local support group that I am going to check out too. They meet the 2nd and 4th tuesdays of every month. I normally have counselling those days, but I am going to try going to the next meeting and check it out.
Well, I have to finish getting ready for work.