Steely
Active Member
OK.........I really am in a bad, bad mood today. I don't know what the deal is, but I am hating everything and one today. (A large part of it is recovering from the ordeal of the century with my ex last week) - but that aside - the pressures are too high right now and I feel as if I can barely breathe. Every time I turn around there is an overdue bill, a fire to put out, a kitchen to clean, an aberrant interaction or demand from my difficult child, a dog that has an itch.......you know the drill. I mean, I don't even need a husband, I just need a business partner that can come in every day and help me regain control of my life!
Anyhoo..........I took a nap this afternoon, since the depression would not loose it's grip on my little brain. (Why it is, that when I need to do the most, I got the least motivated - I will never know.) And it started to rain. No big deal....living in Texas lately is like living in the rain forest.......constant rain. There was lots of lightning, thunder, blah, blah, blah - and then.........the lights flickered. Whatever I thought.....this has happened about once a month lately during a storm. However the thought crosses my mind about my bad luck with lightning as of late. Last fall lightning took out my satellite dish - this May lightning fried the circuit board in my AC unit, (1300.00 later) - and last month lightning knocked all of my power out.
So I get up from my nap, burning up, and look at the AC thermostat..........it was not working. The blower was on, but it was not cooling, just like the last time the circuit board got fried. Lightning has hit again!!!!???????????
:grrr: Surely NOT! I mean, unfathomable, right? So I call the AC guy, and he starts laughing - (nice touch, huh)..........
"you got hit by lightning again - whats up with you and god?" Lovely response I thought. So then I call the electrician, the electric company - and everyone is telling me that there can be absolutely nothing causing this continuous problem with me and electricity except random, yet synchronized, "acts of god."
:crazy: For real????? Seriously????
So, here I sit, waiting for the AC guy to come - not having a dime to pay him - and completely baffled as to what to do in the future to remedy this problem. Not to mention, I am unwillingly a tad bit superstitious. Really, sometimes I do feel cursed...........sometime it is all too much.
2007 has already seen:
My house struck by lightning 3 times
My dad diagnosed with rapid growth, stage 4, brain cancer
My grandmother dying
Me in hospital for kidney stone surgery
difficult child in psychiatric hospital -
difficult child involved in about 3 other aberrant, off the charts episodes
Ex having papers served
Breaking up with a man that I was crazy about
I am worn, worn, out.......tired, and fed up with this whole life. Is it bad luck, or bad karma, or?????
Thanks for listening -
Anyhoo..........I took a nap this afternoon, since the depression would not loose it's grip on my little brain. (Why it is, that when I need to do the most, I got the least motivated - I will never know.) And it started to rain. No big deal....living in Texas lately is like living in the rain forest.......constant rain. There was lots of lightning, thunder, blah, blah, blah - and then.........the lights flickered. Whatever I thought.....this has happened about once a month lately during a storm. However the thought crosses my mind about my bad luck with lightning as of late. Last fall lightning took out my satellite dish - this May lightning fried the circuit board in my AC unit, (1300.00 later) - and last month lightning knocked all of my power out.
So I get up from my nap, burning up, and look at the AC thermostat..........it was not working. The blower was on, but it was not cooling, just like the last time the circuit board got fried. Lightning has hit again!!!!???????????
:grrr: Surely NOT! I mean, unfathomable, right? So I call the AC guy, and he starts laughing - (nice touch, huh)..........
"you got hit by lightning again - whats up with you and god?" Lovely response I thought. So then I call the electrician, the electric company - and everyone is telling me that there can be absolutely nothing causing this continuous problem with me and electricity except random, yet synchronized, "acts of god."
:crazy: For real????? Seriously????
So, here I sit, waiting for the AC guy to come - not having a dime to pay him - and completely baffled as to what to do in the future to remedy this problem. Not to mention, I am unwillingly a tad bit superstitious. Really, sometimes I do feel cursed...........sometime it is all too much.
2007 has already seen:
My house struck by lightning 3 times
My dad diagnosed with rapid growth, stage 4, brain cancer
My grandmother dying
Me in hospital for kidney stone surgery
difficult child in psychiatric hospital -
difficult child involved in about 3 other aberrant, off the charts episodes
Ex having papers served
Breaking up with a man that I was crazy about
I am worn, worn, out.......tired, and fed up with this whole life. Is it bad luck, or bad karma, or?????
Thanks for listening -